Your Confessional

[Nate]

This will be your confessional for the entire season. Nobody but you and the moderators will be able to see this thread, unless you give away your password.

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Please post in your confessionals at least once a round, preferably more. If you fail to post the minimum amount of confessionals after 3 warnings, you will be removed from the game.

You may either post in here the entire time, or you can make a thread for each week, etc. whatever works best for you.

Have fun and please be as dramatic and mean as possible.

Love (hate),
Nate Probst

[Jacob]

IM HERE IVE MADE IT
IM AN ALL STAR
DREAMS DO COME TRUE

now i just need to not get 24th place thx

[Jacob]

Tbh I hate that my confessional is so far down the list, it's hard to find</3

BUT UGH that challenge was frustrating. I forgot what it's like to do these awful terrible torture things. And we've got 6 people who think they're great at challenges trying to work together, that's a lot of egos in one awful chatzy. AND ON TOP OF THAT, you have the princess of complaining there! Like don't get me wrong, I probably actually like Kaitlyn more than some of these people do, but trying to do a challenge with her wasn't fun. I think I pulled enough of my weight though, and hopefully I had a good performance. On the strength tribe, challenge performance might actually be a factor in voting, who knows?!?!

But in case alliances win out, which they probably will, I've tried to be good on that front too. I've been asked to work with Dewie/Phil/James, and like tbh I'm totally on board with that. However I'm also trying to stay good with Kaitlyn, and well I just talked to Dusty for the first time like right before the challenge so the jury's still out on that one. I'm just so glad nobody from my original season is on this tribe, I'm here for Survivor All Stars, not the Survivor Bermuda reunion part 2. People have already brought up reuniting our alliance from Bermuda (me/Ricardo/Cole) and even the failed fake Tonga-Bermuda alliance from BB. I'm just like STOP THIS IS A DIFFERENT GAME, GET SOME ORIGINAL THOUGHTS. But like if they wanna work with me that's fine, I'm just gonna keep my options open. I've talked to Stan some, and he said he wants to work together if we end up at a swap/merge, and he's also talked to Joey which is awesome since we didn't work together in Bermuda. And then I think he's from Tonga so he'd be a part of that sh*t, but I've talked to Tom and I like him!!! Also I was considering just talking to the other winners and seeing if we wanted to look out for each other, people might target us just because we won and that's no fun!!! So I'm hoping that even though I'm on the strength tribe and people said that I only won Bermuda because of challenges and idols, I can play a decent strategic and social game and actually get some respect?!?!?!?!?!?!

[Jacob]

Yay no 24th or 23rd for me<3
I was like super worried about our time LOL but there was no need for that. Apparently the blue tribe decided to go out for drinks or something in the middle of their challenge.......that time is very..........sad. I just hope all my friends on the other tribes are in good enough places to survive this round<3

[Jacob]

Another challenge done, hopefully another round of no tribal!! I think I'm continuing to show my tribe that I can pull my weight tho, but like honestly I'm not even trying or anything LOL IDK I just like words so that challenge was fun for me. I just memorized a few of the sets of letters at a time then scrolled through the Wikipedia page looking for weird words that had some similar letters, then double checked to make sure they all matched up. Then rinse and repeat with the next few sets. Guess Tonga was good to me.

I'm worried that people are gonna start like pairing me/James together tho WHEN I DONT EVEN KNOW HOW THIS STARTED. I like James a lot don't get me wrong, but I don't wanna be associated with him THAT closely. Unless he's cute, I'd make an exception for that tbh #noshame #showmance

ALSO RIP KYLE THE FIRST BERMUDA PERSON HAS FALLEN. I knew he'd be out pretty early lmao, but not FIRST. I was hoping to get to know him this time around, but it wasn't meant to be.

[Jacob]

Lmao thank god I had the hooks taken from right in front of me, the net turned out to be a much better option

The idol board is a puzzle lmao that makes so much more sense. I was wondering what the random colors and shapes meant, but now I know. The only thing I don't get is whether the code on the board is the actual answer or just another hint LOL but I'll figure that out later/maybe when I can guess again in the morning

[Jacob]

YAY a challenge win again. I DIDNT EVEN DO ANYTHING FOR THIS ONE THO I FEEL BAD
The whole tribe was like ALEX WE WANNA GO WHENEVER YOURE FREE and i was like OK ILL BE HOME SOON
and then i didn't do ANYTHING because the stupid things wouldn't show up for me
TBH I was kind of tipsy tho I didnt tell anyone because I didn't wanna make more excuses

I RLY WANTED TO GET ONE RIGHT BY RANDOMLY GUESSING THO
LIKE IF RIHANNA HAD BEEN RIGHT I WOULD HAVE CRIED, RIHANNA IS EVERYTHING

Unrelated to the challenge tho, I'm hoping that I can like get an idol at some point THAT WOULD BE NICE. If I do, imma have to tell James and Phil LOL because they asked me if I got the clue and I said no but LIKE I DID YESTERDAY. idk I just wanna try being honest with people this time. I'm really enjoying getting to know James, and like I think it would help us move forward in this game. I think I'm too easy sometimes, like I have no clue if he enjoys talking to me LOL he could totally be playing me, but I just want a friend SO lucky him, he gets to deal with me. I THINK IM PRETTY LIKABLE THO tbh I have no clue. I come across like an idiot LOL but I guess that's kind of my goal. I don't wanna seem smart, I'm just the nice goofy guy who likes puzzles and words. I could actually use my Bermuda game to my advantage, people thought I rly had no social or strategic skills there, so I might as well act like I don't!!!!!

[Jacob]

K i am literally gonna work this idol bullsh*t out in here to double check BECAUSE I THOUGHT I WAS ON TO SOMETHING BUT NO

The clue said that the colors/shapes are letters, so I started with the words that I was the most sure about
I figured that TO and IDOL were in those spots, and then I just kind of went from there and got
TO TRACK THE IDOL AND OBTAIN REWARDS PRIVATE MESSAGE NATE SAYING THIS QUOTE
using this as my shape/color to letter key
A - Orange Circle
B - Purple Square
C - Yellow Triangle
D - Blue Circle
E - Red Hexagon
F - NONE
G - Yellow Hexagon
H - Blue Triangle
I - Green Square
J - NONE
K - Red Circle
L - Yellow Square
M - Red Triangle
N - Purple Circle
O - Orange Hexagon
P- Orange Triangle
Q - Blue Hexagon
R - Purple Triangle
S - Green Circle
T - Yellow Circle
U - Red Square
V - Blue Square
W - Green Triangle
X - NONE
Y - Purple Hexagon
Z - NONE
Blacks are spaces???

BUT I FOLLOWED THOSE INSTRUCTIONS AND GOT NOTHING
so either i did something wrong or the idol has been found already idk

I'm just gonna sit here and look at this now that I've got it all typed up neatly

[Jacob]

Nate tell me the answer oh survivor god 
i have a reputation to keep up 

[Jacob]

Tbh I'm scared of how I did on this challenge LOL, I'm not sure what a good score is, and it's the first individual challenge so I don't wanna be #embarrassed

I made a cute little spreadsheet with my moves and stuff tho it's adorable and I'd like to thank it for helping me through the challenge<3
  

I hope this picture shows up because I don't know how to do technological things. But like idk I'm just gonna go watch the premiere of the Scream tv series now because I missed it earlier, and Scream the movie is my 2nd favorite movie ever<33 

[Jacob]

Also I just realized Lizzie got voted out, thank god. That crazy b*tch just doesn't like me for some reason LOL, apparently I was too good in Bermuda which makes me an awful player?? Cole let me/Ricardo know that his 4 person alliance are the only ppl left on his tribe, which means he didn't work with Kyle or Lizzie, and maybe he doesn't wanna work with the Bermudas at all. I mean working with them wasn't my top choice either, but it was an option in case nothing else worked. Also I think he was trying to ask one of us to throw the challenge if we were in a good spot, but I already did it so that's my excuse (wouldn't have thrown it anyways but still)

[Jacob]

Well sh*t

We were doing so well up until this point But like honestly this challenge basically came down to 4 people LOL: Kaitlyn Kenny Vova and Joey
The two winning tribes had a hella lucky person, and the two losers had a hella dumb person. Honestly kaitlyn has done nothing to prove to me that she deserves to be on this tribe. But will she get voted out?? IDK, I have a feeling it'll be me LOL just because that would be just my luck!!!! Doing the best on a challenge and still payin da price.

Now is the time to test and see if i've actually made good social relationships on this tribe!!!

[Jacob]

OK so the plan at the moment is to split votes
Me/Phil vote dusty
James/Dewie vote Kaitlyn

I have no clue who dusty and kaitlyn are voting, dusty told me Phil but I'm not sure if that's just to throw me off or what. I'm like 95% sure that someone has the idol, and I'm slightly less sure that person is dusty. So I'm just rly hoping this vote splitting goes according to plan, dusty plays his idol, we vote kaitlyn out on the revote. Even if no idol comes up we still vote kaitlyn out.

I definitely trust that James and Phil are doing what they say, Dewie is the only question mark for me. Like he messaged me this morning asking how the votes were being split, and I'm like ...? you alrdy know??? So either he's just rly paranoid and making sure that I'm not an idiot, or he's up to something idk. I mean I know how to split votes LOL, I have bad history with it from Bermuda but that's not my fault.

I'm just glad that people from other tribes have been wishing me luck at tribal haha, it reassures me that if I can survive this I'll be in a good spot at a swap. The first tribal is just so stressful because it's the first chance for people to prove where their loyalties actually lie

[Jacob]

Why did this happen ((

I honestly don't know why it was James and not me lmao. I mean I'm glad, but like I just didn't see it coming :/ These people better hope I don't make it to a swap or merge or whatever because I am jumping off this ship as soon as possible. I thought we had a good thing going, but apparently someone had other ideas!! And by someone I mean Dewie. I mean if he wants to work with the sh*tty people then fine, but I'm gonna make it my mission to take them all out. I'm just UGH right now like this probably happened because people paired me/James together which was threatening idk? I'm gonna feel awful if I ruined his game somehow. HES SO NICE UGH i honestly think i annoyed him a lot LOL but he still put up with me.

GOD I HATE THIS f*ckING TRIBE NOW LIKE f*ck EVERYTHING

[Jacob]

OH MY GOD A SWAP YAS

[Jacob]

Ok welp I am now in the Anti-Vets alliance with Phil, Cole, Ricardo, Tom, and Enchilada.

This could be interesting depending on how the tribe swap goes?? They're concerned about the apparent vet alliance of Dewie/Dusty/Kaitlyn/Alaina/Ashley/Jimmy
The blue tribe helped by taking Kenny out last round, so losing James made it like even I guess. I'm interested to see how these tribes end up, it's got the potential to be a disaster or really good lmao. I'm also interested to see where the ppl who aren't in either alliance go. Like I like all of them LOL, Bryan/Joey/Stan/Vova/Briq/Magnum, so if I could get something going with them too then BOOM. My biggest nightmare is ending up on a tribe with a majority of "vets" or whatever. UGH like maybe we could at least just win challenges and avoid tribals but IDK

[Jacob]

I like my new tribe tbh!!!

I'm still with Phil who is the only other strength person that I still trust. But we're also in a good position because Dusty/Dewie need us for votes too. But now the Anti-Vets alliance has expanded to literally 12 people LOL they're planning for the merge already and everything. I'm not gonna get that far ahead of myself, because I still think someone has an idol from my tribe, IDK about other tribes, but there's just no way that the next 6 people to go are gonna be all 6 vets. I'm so happy that I get to be on a tribe with like Bryan/Briq/Vova, they're all people that I like but that I haven't gotten a chance to talk to as much in this game. But now I've gotten to talk to them yay, maybe I can just take James's place in a Tonga alliance LOL.

2 tribes down and I haven't ended up with a single Bermuda person. TBH I'm still happy about that, I wanna keep making other bonds before trying to rely on the Bermuda ones. I think I could potentially be in a hella good spot if this somehow all does go according to plan. I'm not really sure how this happened LOL everything is just kind of falling into my lap, but hey I'll take it.

[Jacob]

TBH i'm a little sad that I can't do all the puzzles for this challenge, this is like my dream LOL, I wanna try them all out EVEN THE KAKURO WHATEVER

I was assigned word search though, and I think I did a decent job. This is gonna sound lame af, but then again I always sound lame af LOL so here goes nothing. My ex girlfriend and I (back before I was a #homo) used to like compete in word searches and stuff, and she was the ONE PERSON who could beat me most of the time RIP ME. My only weakness with this word search was trying to actually mark the words out lmao, I'm not a pro with technology or photo editors or anything like that, so it might have added some time. ALSO THE LAST WORD I FOUND WAS STRENGTH LIKE UGH THAT WAS MY TRIBE

I hope we can pull out a win at this tho. The yellow tribe seemed to just assign our puzzles in alphabetical order LOL except for Vova, maybe he's the idiot of our tribe or something idk. I think we seemed to put a little more thought into it which will hopefully pay off. LIKE I WON THE WORD SEARCH CHALLENGE IN BERMUDA AND HALF THAT OTHER TRIBE WAS ON BERMUDA SO.

Just gotta hope Stan struggles hard with that Kakuro man

[Jacob]

Phil DQed.....?? WTF PHIL. Like honestly don't do a challenge if there's a possibility you won't have time to finish, it's not like the deadline was even that close. And even once his friend showed up that's when you pull an IM IN THE BATHROOM HOLD ON or even I NEED TO FINISH SOMETHING ON THE COMPUTER. YA DONT JUST LEAVE.....God I'm gonna be back at tribal already ugh I wanted a break from that

[Jacob]

Something shady is going down

Cole messaged me earlier today asking if I threw my challenge, and I was like......? That is literally the dumbest thing I've ever heard. I DONT THROW CHALLENGES LOL HELLO HAVE YOU MET ME. But then a few minutes ago he said that people are being paranoid and are worried about me or something. And again I'm like.........? WHAT HAVE I DONE LOL. IM LITERALLY JUST HERE TBH. He's like "just making sure you're still anti vet" and i'm like LOOK THEY LITERALLY TOOK OUT THE PERSON I TRUSTED THE MOST, IDC ABOUT VET/NON VET, I CARE ABOUT WHO HAS ALREADY FKED ME OVER

But then he switched the conversation topic to Phil, so I'm worried that I'm gonna be associated with him if people are actually worried about him and not me LOL. Why can't I just catch a BREAK. Honestly tho it does seem like Phil threw the challenge or something, and he might be with the "vets" or something after all this. I think I can convince him that I'm on board with whatever he is though, so I have a shot at being the #swingvote if it comes down to it.