Your Confessional

[Jacob]

Oh wow I haven't done one of these in a while lmao

[Jacob]

OK well lemme just get caught up I guess

We won the last challenge yay, the other tribe like barely tried LOL
Joey got voted out, RIP another Bermuda player Also good job Anti Vet alliance, you were rly successful!!!! SHOCKER
Apparently Joey had some drama after being voted out IDK I missed it. But the Anti Vet failure went public, and Dewie messaged me about it LOL
He was like "it shook my confidence in the game" and i'm just like f*ck you, how do you think i felt when i was in the minority on the strength tribe?? i feel like he's rly entitled lmao i just don't like him tbh.

This challenge was fun tho, I'm glad I got to be useful by being the resident Bermuda expert. And shocker, I got all my questions right on the first try!! One was about Lizzie ruining my unanimous jury vote RIP Maybe it's because my season was the most recent, or maybe it's because I actually prepared IDK. I hope we win tho, tribal is still scary especially now with everything out in the open. I NEVER LIKED THE DAMN ANTI VET ALLIANCE BEING LITERALLY 12 PPL ANYWAYS

[Jacob]

victory again hallelujah

[Jacob]

ugh another tribe swap ARE YOU KIDDING ME, i actually felt comfortable on my old tribe tbh Both sides were at least ACTING like they wanted me, which was betta than nothing.

Now i'm on a tribe with the people i don't even KNOW, Jimmy and Ashley, and this was the last tribe I was hoping for as the names were announced. And of course this is all coming right after Jimmy vs Stan, who is ALSO on this tribe. It just doesn't seem like it'll be a positive environment tbh. Ideally I would work with Bryan and Stan, but I don't know if Bryan is close to Jimmy/Ashley. I'm hoping that he's not so that Jimmy/Ashley ask me to be their 3rd LOL, I just rly wanna be the swing vote to get myself safety.

Out of the number options that were left, I would've SO picked 9 if Alaina hadn't just done it. I can't believe all these ppl were awake to pick numbers like damn. The other tribes would've just been so much easier for me like damn, red is still a powerhouse who will probably never lose, and yellow at least has the people I've talked to. I can't believe I've still never ended up with another Bermuda person LOL, I was happy about that with the original tribes, didn't rly care about it at the first swap, BUT NOW I WANT IT. I at least want to get to play with Ricardo and Cole again before I'm eventually taken out!!!

I just hope we can somehow pull out 1st or 2nd in whatever this challenge will be.

[Jacob]

I'm like dreading challenge results tmrw ugh I can't believe I f*cked up so badly ( FOR SOME REASON MY BRAIN JUST WOULDNT WORK

WHENEVER MY TRIBE READS THIS IM SORRY. But at least if we lose then my decision is clear, I have to vote out Jimmy or Ashley so that Alaina doesn't come and give them the numbers to take me out next. I'm just worried that people will put aside the Stan drama and go after me now for messing up :// I don't wanna get out now, I have so much more game left in me. Hopefully they'll take pity on me and keep me around because I'm not a strategic or social threat, and clearly not physical anymore either after this performance. Ugh

[Jacob]

Welp turns out we lost at math and words, go Chu Tu!!! This tribe sucks lmao like this is literally the last place I wanted to be. as the tribes were being revealed I was saying PLZ RED OR YELLOW and here I am on green. I just hope that me Bryan and Stan can vote together, I'm leaning towards Jimmy just because Ashley contributed something lmao. I'm probably on the chopping block so hopefully I'll live to see another day

[Jacob]

My least favorite thing about this game is how EVERYONE asks about every little detail of what's happening at our tribal. It's like holy sh*t, you aren't on this tribe, calm the hell down. I wish I could just ignore literally everyone who isn't on Chu Tu right now LOL, can we get our own separate beach or something like damn.

[Jacob]

God I am in such a bad position LOL

I want to vote Stan out tbh just because that whole alliance with like Stan/Enchilada/Vova/Briq WHOEVER ELSE is way too big AND THEY WONT LEAVE ME THE f*ck ALONE and I'm gonna get like 10th at best if I stay with them. However, if I do vote Stan out, I'm gonna be on the bottom of the tribe LOL because I'll be instantly replaced with Alaina. So the best option in order to remain important would be to vote Jimmy/Ashley out now, and hopefully they'll still let me in as their 3rd to vote out Stan if we lose again LOL. I just don't have a group, like I'm not in the new school cool kids club, or the old school cool kids club, or anything. Hell I'm sure Cole and Ricardo are both closer to each other than me now even because they've been on the same tribe for the last 2 swaps.

I need to become important enough to actually get to a good spot in a group, but I don't see that happening until merge possibly. Especially if cool kid red tribe starts losing. As long as I'm on the outs I'll just be expendable to both groups lmao.

[Jacob]

PEOPLE: JUST DO THE f*ckING CHALLENGE RIGHT NOW
ITS NOT YOUR f*ckING GAMES ON THE LINE, YOU PPL HAVE A f*ckING MAJORITY ON THIS TRIBE GOD DAMN

I WANT TO GO NOW, LETS GO

[Jacob]

Green tribe actually got sh*t done today, thank god. I think we have a rly good score LOL

And it doesn't hurt that literally everyone in the game has messaged me again saying that they're trying to throw the challenge to help out me and bryan?!?! like honestly we might have won without any help LOL, but i'll take what i can get. I'm sure these people are trying to help out bryan more than me by throwing, but i'll go along for the ride. I'm in a very vulnerable position in this game, one more tribal and I'm probably out. Not the best feeling in the world, especially for someone who has won this game before, but I'll see if there's anything I can do. I highly doubt there's another swap before merge because that would be insane af, so I've gotta try to ride this out for a few more rounds. Get some wins up in there, and maybe if we lose again they'll take out bryan before me. I like the guy, but I'll throw him under every bus out there in order to stay in the game.

[Jacob]

I am officially living to see another day, thank god.

TBH some crazy sh*t is probably gonna go down at yellow's tribal because I'm sure either Dusty or Dewie found the original Strength idol. But for my game, I need Dusty or Dewie to go lmao. I've wanted it for a while now, and I'm HOPING that if one of them goes, Alaina/Ashley/Jimmy will target Bryan before me because he's less likely to work with them at a merge. I'm like technically a free agent or whatever, so if they're down in numbers, I'm someone who could potentially help them out. But I'm in what, like top 14 now??? That's honestly better than I thought I'd do LOL, so I can only go up from here.

[Jacob]

Time to go fight for my life in this game again, oh boy!

[Jacob]

God that was like the single most stressful moment of my life

Nate I could go for some of ur cigarettes right now tbh

BUT LIKE ACTUALLY I COULD CRY TEARS OF JOY
I NEVER EVEN GOT THE CHEMISTRY ONE BUT THATS OK, IM NOT ACTUALLY THAT GOOD AT CHEMISTRY LOL SO I PROBS WOULDVE LOST
Like holy sh*t, 2 more people are getting voted out and they ARENT ME
I actually have a shot at making merge, I can do this.

At first I thought my tribe would try to throw to protect Dusty BUT I GUESS NOT BECAUSE JIMMY GOT THE MOST CLUTCH POINT OF THE GAME. 
Ugh that challenge was just so fun and I'm not even upset that I'm up later than I wanted to be.

[Jacob]

Yay merge<3333
I didn't think I had a shot at making it back here, but yet here I am!!

And lmao...I'm the last original strength member left. We went from 4 to 1 SO QUICKLY. I'm not saying like original tribe alliances are gonna dominate and that I'm screwed because of this, but like IDK ITS JUST WEIRD. I think I'm definitely a free agent going into this merge, and I wanna try to make something happen. Currently the reigning "first merge tribal" is my own move from Bermuda, so I need to top myself LOL.

[Jacob]

I'm so confused about the strength tribe idol....did nobody find it or did someone get voted out with it lol.....

Everyone is gonna think that I have it now BUT I DONT. I WISH I DID THO.

I bet someone had it ugh. They're gonna mess my game up by going out with it. But like who wouldn't have played it LOL, Dusty would've been dumb not to after Dewie got out, Phil seems cautious enough to have played it on his tribe, James didn't have it I'm pretty sure, I don't think Kaitlyn could've possibly found it, and Dewie welp idk about him.

This is gonna bother me til the end of the game now lmao

[Jacob]

Immunity yay. No merge boot for me<33

THIS GAME IS GONNA BE SO MESSY THO LIKE UGH.
The vets came to me, Ricardo, and Bryan about flipping to them. And honestly I was on board because I think I'm at the bottom of the anti-vets, but Bryan is the one who didn't seem to want to do it. I don't know what he's got planned, but I don't wanna go against Bryan. Bryan is literally perfect ugh he's cute and likes animals and UGH. HES LIKE NEVER ONLINE THO, TALKING TO HIM ABOUT THIS STUPID GAME IS SO DIFFICULT.

So I guess I'm just sticking with the Anti-Vets for now, OH BOY HOW EXCITING!!!
And within that I have an alliance with Ricardo/Cole/Magnum??? Seems kind of random for Magnum to want to work with the 3 Bermuda people LOL but idk.
Also there's a good ole Tonga-Bermuda alliance because I'm SURE that will work!! But that alliance has expressed interest in getting Enchilada out sooner rather than later, and that's honestly what I want because out of all 12 people I trust him the least and he's cocky/annoying af.

Oh I just thought about this while I was typing. So the Anti-Vets are supposed to split the vote 5-4, with original social/strategy voting Ashley, and original sidelined/me voting Alaina. But Bryan asked if we could switch because he doesn't wanna vote Ashley. BUT WHAT IF HES LYING. What if he votes with the vets after all, and I vote for Ashley making it 5-3-4, and one of the vets has an idol OOOOOH. Then it makes me look bad because a vote for Alaina would be missing and nobody would suspect Bryan. IS HE SMART/MEAN ENOUGH TO PULL THAT OFF??

God so many things are happening.

[Jacob]

OK well I tried to be a nice person and tell Ashley that Bryan/Ricardo weren't rly on board, BUT THEN SHE TOLD ME THAT RICARDO SAID BRYAN/ME WERENT ON BOARD, AND BRYAN SAID RICARDO/ME WERENT ON BOARD. Like ok no that's not gonna fly w/ me, I told them both I was down to go with whatever side. I TAKE BACK EVERY NICE THING I SAID ABOUT BRYAN, HES NOT CUTE ANYMORE

Now I'm tempted to vote Enchilada out, hoping to throw some suspicion onto someone other than myself if Bryan is serious about voting for Alaina. But if he's told people that we're supposed to be switching votes, it still looks bad for me LOL. Ugh Bryan is totally playing me I think. There's no winning scenario. If I vote for Ashley and he votes for Alaina, then I guess everything is good. If I vote for Ashley and he votes for Enchilada, it looks like I flipped. If I vote for Enchilada and he votes for Alaina, it looks like he flipped UNLESS HE TOLD PPL AHEAD OF TIME THAT WE SWITCHED. If I vote for Enchilada and he votes for Enchilada well we're both screwed then. LIKE even if he doesn't wanna work with me, we're kinda stuck together for this round at least so he betta be honest with me.

[Jacob]

UGH now Ashley messaged me/Ricardo and said that she's using an idol on herself. That's good and bad for me I guess.

So if Bryan and I are both switching votes, it should be 5 Ashley-4 Alaina-3 Enchilada
The Ashley ones would be cancelled and Alaina would go unless Ricardo and I both flipped lmao. But I don't wanna flip with just one other person, Jimmy/Ashley/Alaina are a tight threesome and Ricardo/myself would be very much on the bottom NOT TO MENTION WE WOULDNT EVEN HAVE MAJORITY NEXT ROUND, IT WOULD BE 6-5.

So at the moment there's really no incentive for me to flip, even tho I do want Enchilada out. I just wish there was some way to accomplish that WITHOUT GETTING A TARGET ON MY BACK. And now I don't even have time to talk to people or think of good strategies, I've just gotta go with my gut and UGH

[Jacob]

OK i take back the time that I took back saying nice things about Bryan

EXCEPT HONESTLY I WISH HE WAS PLAYING ME LOL IT WOULDVE MADE THINGS EASIER

Now I'm back at square one of probably being at the bottom of the anti vets alliance!! I'm just glad Alaina went instead of Ashley (sry #Alainate shippers), I talked to Alaina like one time in this game and think I can do damage control with Ashley easier. Plus Ashley is another winner, a 2 time winner at that! So she should be a target before me if people go after winners. And hell even Briq is a bigger threat than me LOL I kind of lucked in to my win I feel like.

[Jacob]

Ok so wow I'm upset that I feel like I can't do anything I want in this game LOL

I don't want Ashley to leave tonight, but everyone else (except for maybe like Bryan) is so blinded by getting her and Jimmy out that going against that would increase the size of my probably already big target. I knew coming into this merge that I could either play the game that I wanted and get out earlier, or try to ride out these first few rounds and hope that all these bigger names start targeting each other. So I'm not playing the exact game I want to be playing, but I'm still me!!!!! I'm still the same Jacob that every1 knows and loves. jacobstautzy on all social media for all those big survivor fans at home. Still good at challenges wooo.

Bryan and I are switching votes without the rest of the ppl knowing LOL, I don't get why he thinks that not actually voting for Ashley makes a difference when he's perfectly aware that she is getting the majority of the votes and not doing anything about it, but whatever helps his adorable self sleep at night<3333 Tbh he's gonna be so creeped out if he reads this ever LOL SRY BRYAN you are just very attractive.

TBH this was a quieter round than last round I think, hopefully that's not a bad sign........from all of my online game experience it usually is LOL, but sometimes people are just busy/quiet. I need to make sure I'm in a good place before I leave for camp on Sunday LOL, my online time will be limited so I'm gonna have to #work