Confessionals

[Jacob]

I've never been more surprised or happy to win a challenge lol. Every challenge I win just buys me one more round before it's possible that people can pull a move on me. And it gives me more time to work on my social relationships so that I can gain the upper hand when it gets down to it. So for me winning challenges is entirely positive, and I'd love to keep doing it

I sent Brett to exile this time because he hasn't been yet, and Jeffrey, Ricardo, and Lizzie all have. It's as simple as that, hopefully they all understand. There's a LITTLE more to it though...I'm hoping that nobody's found the exile idol yet, and by sending different people every round I feel like it maybe lessens the chance of finding it. I'm a little upset to be the one Vireo member who hasn't been to exile postmerge, but it's ok because I have my own idol and a necklace at the moment.

It'll be interesting to see if anyone on Vireo tries to keep Joey/Hanna around and take out someone from our alliance. Would they even approach me about it, or will I be left in the dark? I kind of want the lines to be drawn, but someone from Anole to still go home. That way there's some drama between my alliance in the coming rounds and I won't be involved in it.

Top 6 here I come<3

[Jacob]

So my alliance is splitting our votes in case of an idol. Now I know who has the idol, and I'm sure there's some other suspicion out there, but I can't confirm that I have it for my own game. So I have to pretend that splitting the vote is a smart idea, even though I'm sure it has a big chance at ending up badly. Brett, Jeffrey, and I are supposed to be voting for Joey, and Ricardo and Lizzie are supposed to vote for Hanna. Jeffrey has flipped to Anole before, there's a chance that he could vote with Joey/Hanna and take out someone from our side. I don't know if he is or not, but it would be kinda smart for him to do it I think. He's probably at the bottom of Vireo with everyone except for me, so taking a Vireo person out now just moves him one spot up the totem pole. Working with Anole permanently would be dumb for him though, if he chose to go to the end with Anole, he'd get no Vireo votes and no Anole votes. Hell I guess there's a chance that anyone could flip I guess. Do I think Brett will? Not really, Brett doesn't do much of anything. Do I think Ricardo or Lizzie will? Maybe both, but it would have to be both for it to work. Then that would just be crazy and I might be in minority if that happens. And of course there's a chance that everything just goes according to plan, we make it 5 Vireo and 1 Anole, and then move on to next week which will have its own assortment of possibilities.

Also sorry to whoever reads these, I'm really not as paranoid as I seem. I just like talking through all the options in here so that I'm prepared for anything

[Jacob]

Welcome me to the minority!

I guess it's just me and Brett vs the world lmao. God I'm so upset right now, Lizzie and Jeffrey BOTH flipped? What is their motivation, and am I the next target? I guess it's time to do some damage control, hopefully I can get myself back into a good place :/

[Jacob]

*prays to the survivor bermuda gods that the next challenge is something i'm good at*

I like math, can something be math related? Or tv show related, I watch way too much tv. Or texas related, that would be nice since i live there.

[Jacob]

k this isn't something that i'm good at

which means it's probs gonna be time to use my idol once i lose

which means that hopefully the f5 challenge is more up my alley

[Jacob]

I'm literally the one person who didn't vote for this challenge time, go me. I have something every Sunday night at that time lol, like earlier or later I would've been free but oh well. I'll try to play from my phone or something but I was already not expecting to win because this isn't one of my strengths. I'm bad at like strategic games involving planning ahead, I much prefer puzzles and the like

[Jacob]

So I lost immunity, surprise surprise. Now I think I'm gonna play my idol just to be safe, I'd hate to go home with it in my possession.

On exile I found out that the special idol is no longer hidden, which must mean that Lizzie has it. The only people that have been to exile postmerge are Ricardo, Jeffrey, Lizzie, Brett, and me. Ricardo got voted out so it would've probably been rehidden, and Jeffrey and Brett both got punished. That leaves Lizzie. Here's where it gets interesting. Jeffrey told me before the challenge that he has Hanna's vote, and that me/him/Hanna/Brett should vote out Joey because he's really really close with Lizzie. I don't believe for a second that he really has Hanna though, which means that it's probably 3-3 and Lizzie may use her idol, who knows. If that's the case, she'd be reallyyyy smart to approach me and Brett and say that Jeffrey is still flipping, and she's using the idol to help me/her/Brett but REALLY use it to help her/Hanna/Joey. I don't know where anyone's loyalties lie right now lol, both Lizzie and Jeffrey have played the apologetic card since last tribal and been very reassuring that we're still together, but that's bullsh*t. But I just keep saying "Oh it's fine don't worry, I would've voted for Ricardo if you guys had told me, that's the only thing I'm mad about!!!!!" which is even more bullsh*t. Basically this round sounds like it could be a clusterf*ck, and it'll probably end with someone rando like Brett getting voted out (which would suck because I actually trust Brett.)

If this tribal goes badly then I'm gonna have no choice but to win my way to the end, so hopefully this was the last of the challenges that I'm bad at. I just want to make it to the end of this game, I may not get the jury votes, but it would be incredibly satisfying to sit at the final tribal council regardless.

[Jacob]

Oh god what have I done now.

I asked Jeffrey if when he went to exile, it said anything about the special idol being gone. I just wanted to eliminate the possibility that Ricardo had it, but it wasn't rehidden when he was voted out. Jeffrey said that it was still there when he went, so he's sure that Lizzie has it now. And he's going on about blindsiding her this tribal, and THEN he says she would never expect it because the plan is supposed to be to vote ME out...? He says that's NEVER happening, but the fact that it's an option is scary enough.

Personally I think I still want Joey out before Lizzie, without him she'll probably come running back to me. I have no relationship with Joey, he's serving no purpose to me. Plus with him around there's always more of a possibility that Jeffrey doesn't have Hanna (not that I'm sure he does in the first place)

This is messyyyyy

[Jacob]

Ok I am officially thinking that Lizzie has to go. I'm just annoyed with her fakeness lol, like I know she's after me but yet she's still messaging me every 5 seconds. I mean I guess it's strategy on her part to make me feel comfortable, but whatever. I'm hoping that once she's gone, me/Brett/Jeffrey can just take this to the end. Plus Lizzie is a big threat for competitions, she's gotten 2nd to me in like everything that I've won. With her gone, I have more of a chance at winning the challenges. I just don't know who all is on board with this plan...Jeffrey seems to be with me voting for Lizzie, which means he probably thinks Hanna is too. Brett said he was voting Joey last time I talked to him, and I'm not sure if I should tell him that plans are changing or not. I can't leave him out because he'll get upset, but I don't wanna tell him in case he tells Lizzie. I want her blindsided like she's trying to do to me. And of course, Lizzie and Joey are probably voting for me. So that's everyone, whether or not I'm right about their votes is yet to be seen!

[Jacob]

Lmaooooo even more drama is blowing UP right now. Lizzie Confessional-gate 2015 has hit the FAN

Homegirl needs to learn how to use her confessionals or something because this is crazy. She posted a confessional in public basically saying that she is targeting me, and has alliances with everyone, blah blah blah. Of course I saw this all go down last night, but did I tell any of these people? Nope. I like to withhold my information, act like I don't know as much as I do. So even after this, I didn't go to anyone like LIZZIE NEEDS TO GO, I've just gone with the flow and waited. And now that apparently someone else saw it and blabbed, I just get to play dumb and say "Wow this is the first I've heard of it! Can't believe I missed it!!"

Lizzie mailed me saying basically that she was voting me out, but now she's not anymore because Brett convinced her not to. Well that's so nice of Mr. Brett, but Lizzie still needs to go. She may not be voting me out NOW, but she will at some point. What she said has to remain true, I'm not in her endgame plan, and she's just gonna keep me around for like one more week. My only hope is that with her gone, Brett realizes there's no option but to join me/Jeffrey, and the 3 of us take out Joey/Hanna. It's no guarantee, but at least I have a shot at being in their endgame plans. Right now I'm 4th at best with these people.

I don't think a game is supposed to be this stressful lol, I'm hardcore freaking out about how this will end This is probably the most effort I've put into a game, but also the most fun I've had. It would be doubly rewarding to make it to the end, and incredibly heartbreaking not to.

[Jacob]

Do I even have the VOTES to take Lizzie out now though...

If she and Brett are voting for Joey, Joey is voting for me, and Jeffrey and I are voting for Lizzie, it actually does come down to Hanna.

If she votes for me well then there's a tie. If she votes for Lizzie well then bye Lizzie.

God this is a mess. I have no clue who is going. I just know it won't be me because I'm idoling myself, this round has been too crazy for me to risk anything.

[Jacob]

*Cue getting yelled at by Lizzie* God someone get me some earplugs please

I'm trying to imagine how this tribal would be edited on real survivor LOL and it's hilarious.
*Lizzie accidentally gives confessional on the beach while the whole tribe is in the shelter and can hear her*
*Lizzie tries to make a move on the person who saved her a***
*Lizzie gets voted out*

She's not even taking responsibility for her mistake LOL she keeps saying her confessional was overheard...like no, you posted it in public LOL. And she's messaging me like I'M the bad guy here??? Apparently i'm soooo dumb for taking out the person who publicly said that they wanted me out. And I've had an "easy road"...yes because busting my a** to save you/our whole alliance was easy. We were set until she decided to be an idiot and take Ricardo out and try to take me out.

She keeps contradicting herself in her messages to me but like whatever, you're out homegirl. Enjoy Ponderosa, eat some food for me

[Jacob]

Lmao even my closest ally is mad at me now. I'm playing a great social game!

Apparently not telling someone about an idol is the worst thing a person has ever done in the history of the world? Like I mean I know how people get with idols, they try flushing them/blindsiding people with them/getting rid of them however they can. That's not just something I'm gonna go around telling people, no matter how much I trust them. Honestly though if Jeffrey is mad at me and doesn't wanna work with me anymore, I just don't know if it's even worth trying lmao. I've had him as a friend this whole game, and I just wanna keep that friendship :/ I'm such a sap lmao

I just need to get him back on my side so I at least have one person with me in this game, then I just need to get one more, which can hopefully be Brett

[Jacob]

God I hope I got Jeffrey back on my side, I had to tell him my deepest darkest secret!!!! I guess I'll just go ahead and tell everyone who has access to these confessionals too because why not:

"Ok this might be kind of a long story, and it doesn't really even matter LOL but here goes

My name is Jacob, I'm 20 years old, and a junior in college. IDK how you found this site or this game, but I was recruited from a site called tengaged (it's just a big brother/survivor game site if you haven't heard of it, IDK how to accurately describe it...if you're from tengaged then hey!!1) My account there is also AlexTheGreat, but that's not my first account there. I had a pretty highly ranked/popular account, but I like left and made a new one later because I wanted to see how hard it was to do well in games without any friends or prior relationships (spoiler, it's actually pretty hard over there).

So I mean I could've just never told anyone this lmao, but I want to make real relationships with people on this site, I think I like it even more than tengaged lol. So I was gonna just like tell everyone after the game like "Hey my name's not Alex sorry!!!" but I just wanna be open with you even if it's not game stuff."

That's what I said to Jeffrey, so yeah. Everyone I've met here is super duper cool, and I just wanna be able to be myself here when this game ends. IDK if anyone here is from tengaged (if you are then leave there and just stay here tbh), but if you are plz just don't tell anyone else from there if you know who I am. I'm trying to keep this as lowkey as possible because it's really not that big of a deal lol

K thanks

[Jacob]

So google docs still aren't my thing, that's ok though

I struggled with that, not gonna lie. Here's to hoping that everyone else does too. It made it significantly easier with the answer, who would've guessed! I would've loved to have finished before the 20 minute mark, but I wasn't even close. I was moving pieces and they just were getting more confused. I'm starting to consider that I may be getting 5th, which would suck but idk. If that's how it's supposed to be, then I'll take it. I know people will say I should've saved my idol, or I shouldn't have voted Lizzie out, but I don't regret anything. I made the decisions that I thought would get me to the end, and I'm living with the consequences whether they're good or bad. There's a chance that even without immunity I could manage to stay, I mean it would be smart for Jeffrey and Brett to keep me so that it's not 2 Anole and 2 Vireo, we need to keep any advantage we can get. So we'll see what happens.

[Jacob]

I was like 2 seconds away from going to bed when i saw that the idol was posted, and now here I am hours later about to go to sleep finally

Realize that there was a clue in my confessionals took a while, that was tricky tricky tricky. I'm not even sure if I got the puzzle right, I'm like half asleep right now but I just wanted to get a guess in before I slept, just in case it's right. Fingers crossed I'll get some good news tomorrow

[Jacob]

I really hope this vote goes according to plan. The 3 Vireo people need to all vote Joey out, there's no other option. I can't imagine why either Jeffrey or Brett wouldn't go along with the plan, especially because I'm not going anywhere. So it's either Joey or one of them, looks like Joey is the easy choice! Then if that happens, next round hopefully I win immunity, we vote Hanna out, then I win immunity again and vote either Brett/Jeffrey out. It's all easier said than done though lmao, I'll be lucky if I get my way at any one of these remaining tribals.

I still can't really tell if Jeffrey is on my side, or if he's still mad at me but just pretending to forgive me. He's the one I'm worried about flipping tonight, he might be crazy enough to vote Brett out...Jeffrey and Hanna have something going on, and with Brett out of the picture they could be in power next round. Joey and I aren't together, so they could decide which side they wanted to be on if it was the 4 of us. Damn, if Hanna had lost immunity I would've rather taken her out than Joey.

I'm kind of regretting telling Jeffrey about my idol now, but I couldn't afford another surprise, that would just piss him off even more. Maybe I could be incredibly risky though and play it on Brett if I feel like people are targeting him. That could be really cool, or really dumb. I'm probably just gonna play it on myself to be safe, I'd hate to get voted out when I could've saved myself.

[Jacob]

I'm like 99% sure right now that I can't trust jeffrey, he's being shady and it's obvious that he's not voting with me and Brett. The only question now is which one of us are they all voting for? Telling jeffrey about the idol might have backfired on me, because if he didn't know I had it, they'd all vote me for sure. But maybe now they're voting for Brett...it just depends if I want to risk my own game to try to be the hero again. I'm going back and forth in my head saying me, Brett, me, Brett, me, brett. I don't know what to doooooo

[Jacob]

I probably just made the wrong decision, but I can't risk my own safety at this point. If nothing else works, I still have a better shot at winning immunities than Brett, so I have to look out for numero uno. Ugh I hate decisions

[Jacob]

I guess I owe Jeffrey an apology in here if he ever reads this lmao. I had no faith in him, but he voted with us and Joey left YAY. In his defense, he actually did message me that he was voting for Joey right before the deadline...he just said he didn't want to talk in a message with Brett because he doesn't like Brett. That opened my eyes up that HEY they might both take me to the end if they don't like each other??? Hanna just needs to go next and then BOOM i have a shot. I'm just sad that there are no more idols to find, that was something really fun for me I'm sure everyone else is happy though lmao, I probably got super annoying with all the idols.