Confessionals

[Jacob]

I'm not really sure how to do this haha but hopefully this is right?

[Jacob]

Ok hey.

Right off the bat I feel like an idiot because I can't find any idol clues...I guess I'm just not really sure what I'm looking for, and if I could just find one then I could probably find the others too. But by now maybe the idol isn't even there anymore, so I could be looking for nothing.

I'm just ready to compete and start winning challenges

[Jacob]

Done with my part of the first challenge, and I think it went really well Brett seems really cool so far, and I think working with him on the challenge is a decision that will help me down the road. He's definitely someone I could work with long term, hopefully he feels the same!

[Jacob]

I have an idol, yay<3 I'm glad I grew a brain and started finding the clues. Hopefully I can hold onto this for as long as possible without anyone knowing, it'll be my little secret. Also Brett agreed to work together, so that's one person. Now I just need to start talking to the rest of the tribeeeeee

[Jacob]

We won the challenge, yay! I'm super happy that my group had the best performance, it shows that Brett and I are valuable players and deserve to be here. The only possible negative I can think of is that people might think I have some alliance or deal with Steve because I was the one who brought his name up for Exile, but I seriously just randomly picked a name. Something good did come from that though, zeroed or whatever offered me a pact to not vote for each other...so it didn't seem like a full out alliance, but hey it beats nothing. I think I'm in a good place for now, I don't wanna be the person who tries making deals with everyone and plays too hard too fast. I'll just keep being friendly, being active, and being useful. That's the secret to doing well in my book.

[Jacob]

Scored a point for my tribe<3 That's how it's doneee. I'm proving myself in these challenges so far, and I couldn't be happier. I was very surprised to see that Natasha was voted out of the other tribe, she had messaged me about aligning at the merge, so I just assumed that she had messaged everyone in the game, especially her own tribe...guess she got a little ahead of herself and didn't even make it to the merge. Oh well, I wasn't really planning on working with her anyways. I'm just hoping Vireo can get numbers going into the merge and pagong Anole, I don't wanna deal with flippers and new alliances and sh*t like that. I prefer easy roads.

[Jacob]

Lizzie finally decided to make an appearance in the land of the living! She messaged me saying that we need to work together with strong performers, and I'm like ... you weren't even online for any of the game until now...I'll believe she's a strong performer when I see it. At least she knows I'm a strong performer though, the more people that message me, the better. Who knows, maybe she's actually like the best ever at challenges and just slept through the first several days of this.

[Jacob]

Well tribal is no fun. Sadly this tribe has a lot of dead weight, so challenges that require everyone to participate are hard for us! I gotta say though, I initially underestimated Lizzie...she performed well in this challenge. I'm glad I've talked to her some, because it's nice to have options. Right now I have an alliance with Brett, Cole, and Ricardo, and I trust them because we've all been consistently active. We should all just be voting for Tyler, and I told Lizzie to do the same, so hopefully we can rebound from this and get back on the winning side of things.

[Jacob]

copied/pasted from exile just for the sake of remembering things when this is all over lmao

Man I have so much time for self reflection here on exile

I'm just wondering what those damn books are for...maybe it's the special idol which I didn't get the clue to

Like I get that the regular idol clue is spelling out tonga, which is where all the puzzles are located...so the special idol clue might've done something similar with another place. WHO KNOWS, i guess i'll just enjoy my alone time

[Jacob]

It feels so good to be back on the winning side of things<3

That challenge was so stressful, I was on the edge of my seat the whole time. Those Survivor questions really came through for me, I'm glad watching tv was good for something. Everyone in my alliance has been guessing that merge is next, so this win was imperative. If merge is next and we can go into it with 6 united people plus an idol in my back pocket, then there's a good shot at Vireo dominating. My only worry strangely enough is not one of the outsiders (JR or Lizzie), I've actually grown to like them. It's actually Cole...he seems friendly with the other tribe, and that could either be good or bad. If he gets someone to vote with us then hey, but if he flips to vote with them then bye. Only time will tell if he's even got something going on with them, maybe he's just friends with them but his loyalty is to us. I mean he seemed to be trying hard enough at the challenge, and he's a nice guy SO i have no choice but to trust him for now. And who knows, maybe merge isn't even next...maybe we can actually go in with numbers if there's another challenge. The game is totally up in the air at this point in my opinion.

[Jacob]

Lmao just saw the poll, guess merge isn't next after all! Hopefully if i'm chosen as one of the strongest (which I should be) then I'm not like switching tribes or getting screwed or something. I'm a little worried now lmao :X

[Jacob]

Yay merge

Coming into the merge challenge, I was so shocked to see that Cole was voted out. Disappointed, not really. But very surprised. Almost immediately Lizzie messaged me/Brett/Ricardo to let us know that it was Jeffrey who flipped. Personally I don't really care, I'd rather Cole have been voted out than lose Jeffrey in the rock pulling. I think the rest of original Vireo underestimates Jeffrey, but not me. He's a really nice guy, and could be a number for me going forward if it ever does get down to just original Vireo like I want. The only downside to him voting Cole out is that we're now 5-5 with original Vireo/Anole, which could make this first merge tribal pretty tricky. However Jeffrey or Lizzie could've drawn the bad rock, and we still would be in this situation.

The only upside to this was the introduction of the merge idol. I busted my a** finding those clues, and boom. I told Ricardo about this idol, which is more than I did with anyone for the original idol. So maybe since I was honest about this one, there's no suspicion that I have the first one too. I'm probably gonna have to use an idol at this first tribal for either myself since I'm a big threat and will maybe get votes if I don't have immunity, or a tribe mate just so Vireo can get through this together. Then if all works out, I could save my other idol til it gets down to just Vireo. If it goes badly at the first tribal, then I guess I try to win as many challenges as possible and use my idol when I can't. So basically I'd try to be a better version of Terry from Panama oop

Either way I'm just proud of myself for making it to the merge, I think I've made some friends in this game and I've had lots of fun, and that's what really matters :')

[Jacob]

sh*ttttt

Kyle has the damn exile idol, lucky bastard. Assuming things are still divided by tribe (which everyone at tribal is making it seem like they aren't!!), this isn't looking good for Vireo or me. I need to play my idols tonight like Parvati and make sure one is for the right person...that's like a 50/50 shot, do I consider myself a lucky person?? Not usually, but that might change tonight. I'm honestly thinking it won't be Jeffrey since he voted with them last time, so I'm leaning towards ruling him out. However they might vote for him if they think that someone over here has an idol...so I'm kind of back to square one of overthinking. Ugh I'm just glad that I'm safe I guess

[Jacob]

Oh god that was stressful

Honestly I probably could've gotten away with playing just one idol on Lizzie because Jeffrey told me that's who they were voting for, but I wasn't gonna take my chances that Anole had lied to Jeffrey. Everything worked out though, and Vireo is still intact for now. I'm aware that I'll probably become a big target at some point, that's the problem that comes with winning a challenge AND playing 2 idols in the same round. But at least for now my alliance needs me for numbers, and hopefully I've made good enough connections with each individual so that they think I'm a part of their endgame. I need to be adaptable going forward, there's not a set path to the end, this game is gonna change every round and I need to keep up with it. People already seem eager to look for the rehidden idol, so I'd love to beat them and get it back in my possession. Also if the exile idol is back in play, I need to do my best to make sure that someone I trust goes to exile and finds it. That thing is powerful now, one vote could mean everything.

Just glad to be in single digits for now though<3

[Jacob]

I was actually a little worried for that tribal lol. I was told by Kyle that Lizzie and Jeffrey both wanted me out, but I guess it was just his last minute scrambling. It is very possible that a move will be made against me this round though, in theory the Vireo alliance could lose me and still be up 4-3...so it's imperative that I win immunity. Or I guess I could use my new idol if I feel that I really need to, but I'd like to save it for as long as possible. I really would be upset if anyone from Vireo tried to get me out though, I've done so much for them and got us to the position we're in. I saved Lizzie especially, so I feel like she should be loyal to me forever but IDK what's going through her head. Ricardo and Brett and I have had an alliance forever so hopefully that's still solid. And I've always been nice to Jeffrey and would love to keep working with him...tbh Jeffrey is the one person that could flip on me and I would be ok with just because that's how much I like him. But that also means he's dangerous, he could vote everyone out and they would still like him. I know I can't go all the way with him, I just can't get his blood directly on my hands either. For now though I'm focused on doing well in the next challenge, solidifying more plans for the endgame, and having fun.

[Jacob]

Well darn, I never paid too much attention to memorizing those tribe posters...I looked at all of them a few times, but always just for fun. I think I was on the right side of the middle row of one maybe??? I'm just hoping that nobody else has them memorized and maybe I'll get some divine intervention whenever I do the challenge. IDK man this is stressful stuff

[Jacob]

That challenge was fun, hopefully I didn't mess it up lol. I like puzzles and I like logic things, so hopefully I didn't make mistakes May the powers of google docs be with me<3

On the topic of google docs though, I will never really understand those. Like IDK it's just weird that you can change something and someone else can see it on their screen.....I have to use them at school and I'm just like IDK WHAT IM DOING. Also I think my school gmail account was logged in so shoutout to Nate if my name was there hey

Ok I'm done ranting about things that aren't related to the game at all, I'll just wait until Friday to see the resultsssss

[Jacob]

I'm so glad to have the necklace around my neck again, it's such a good feeling being safe. I think I've established that I'm good at puzzles but not endurance challenges oops

I can't tell if this round is just uneventful, or if I've been busy and out of the loop today. I'm hoping it's the former but guessing it's the latter. On the bright side I ate reallyyyy good donuts so I think I win. I sent Lizzie to exile island because she's someone who I feel like I need to try to get as much on my side as possible. We've never made an official deal or anything to go to the end, but I just want her to feel as indebted to me as possible as we get closer to the endgame. Ricardo officially offered me a final 2 deal today, which of course I accepted...to his face. Here in private I'm not so sure if I want to go to the end with him, but we'll see how this plays out. I think he's a worthy opponent that I have a shot at beating, so maybe it'll happen. I don't even know if this is a final 2 or final 3 lol, I feel like final 2 because the jury just started at final 9 I believe. Honestly I kinda just wanna try going with Brett because he doesn't do anything, but he doesn't really deserve finals so IDK. Of course I'm just assuming that Vireo will all be near the end and I'll just get to choose who goes when...I know that WONT be the case, and I'll be lucky to even make it to the end, so I shouldn't be trying to focus on who ELSE is gonna be there. I think this vote should be straightforward and Robby should go, which isn't exactly what I want but I'm not making waves. I think that Joey is a bigger threat, but maybe the rest of Vireo (minus Jeffrey) has a deal with him or something IDK because they wanna keep him around. Or maybe they just honestly think Robby is a bigger threat...who knows. I guess I'll see next week if they have plans for keeping Joey a la Natalie keeping Keith over Alec. Hopefully I'll have that necklace around my cute little neck again very soon~ But for now I'm just excited for a 3 day weekenddddd wooooo partayyyy

[Jacob]

I'm freaking out because Lizzie and Ricardo are both close to finding the idol...well they would be if the idol was still there. Ricardo said he finished all the puzzles, and Lizzie sent me the last puzzle asking for my help on it. I need to get Ricardo to think that Lizzie has it, and maybe even make Lizzie think that Ricardo has it. That's risky though because if they talk or compare their stories, they might realize that someone else entirely (me) has it. Or maybe this is a good time to try to frame Jeffrey...it's believable that he could find an idol. No matter what though I can't get caught in a lie this close to the end, that's suicide right there, so it'll take some work to get out of this situation.

[Jacob]

God I just blew a challenge like I've never blown a challenge before in my life :/

I'm so embarrassed, 25 minutes and I couldn't solve the puzzle...now I'm gonna beat myself up trying to find my mistakes, so I know what I'm doing for the rest of the night! Immunity just slipped out of my fingers, and now I'm back to being vulnerable I'm worried that people might try to make a move on me this tribal, but I don't wanna prematurely play my idol in case I'm just paranoid. But I'd rather play it and deal with the repercussions tomorrow instead of going home with it. I shouldn't even be worrying about the vote yet, I should be finding my mistakes in the puzzleeee ahhhh