Confessionals

[Phil]

This is basically my response to every post Jon ever makes, ever.

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[Phil]

I'm going crazy right now because Gabe hasn't been online in over a day, and I need him to give me my idol back, hahaha. f*ck that STUPID idea. But he has never been MIA for this long. He seriously needs to sign in. Bah humbug.

ALSO BECAUSE I"M SUPER NERVOUS THAT THE FAVORITES ARE SPLITTING THEIR VOTES BETWEEN SHORTY AND GABE AND THAT IF GABE SELF VOTES THERE GOES MY IDOL LOLOLOL.

[Phil]

I feel sad that Shorty was voted out. Mostly because I have been so mean to him in my confessionals, and yeah I was playing with Dewie and Ashley all along. I was so mean to Shorty and he totally didn't deserve it and now I just feel bad that he might read this later and think I'm an a**hole. I did want Shorty to stay because he is a nice guy. I just got frustrated with him a lot of the time, and he played a really silly game. But then again I'm playing a f*cking silly game too. But I feel bad, because even as I write this, Shorty and I are having a real conversation about our lives. I don't know why it took one of us being voted out before we had a conversation like this. I know we are different. He is 19, I am 27. I am crazy. He is pretty straight-laced. He's very traditional, conservative kid studying finance who wants to settle down and have a family and have a secure, well paying job. I live in the wilderness, I don't want to settle down. I do a job I love for relatively low pay, but I do well for myself so I can't complain. I travel and I get around, and people come in and out of my life all the time. So I know we are very different but why did it have to come to one of us being voted out before we had a real conversation? Why couldn't I have had this conversation with him before? Anyway, bah humbug. I knew Shorty had to go but I did want him to stay.

[Phil]

Quick update before I peace out for the night!

I will confess to delaying my participation in the challenge for longer than what the hosts probably would have liked. GABE IS STILL NOWHERE TO BE FOUND. I've contacted a few people who know him as well, and no one has seen him. Its kind of alarming. But I have hope that he'll show up. I guess he's in another Live Amazing Race game and they have legs on Saturday. SO I'm HOPING HE SHOWS UP FOR THAT and he'll get my messages. But its ODD that he hasn't been around at all. And literally know one has seen him.

Anyway, so it was my strategy to delay this challenge and give him some time to show up, even though he's not participating. SORRY! I'm going to hope hope hope that regardless of the results, we can vote out Outlast or Tre. JON WAS BEING AN a**hole AGAIN (surprise), and lo and behold, he has "information" about who has done the challenge and who hasn't. So I guess its not just me who delayed. So hopefully it was Outlast or some sh*t so we can just f*cking vote him out.

My fear is that Gabe and Ashley will see that Gabe is MIA and they'll want to get rid of him. BUT BECAUSE HE HAS MY IDOL, I DESPERATELY NEED HIM TO SHOW UP AND GIVE IT BACK TO ME!

Also, I've actually come to terms with losing my idol if he doesn't come back ever. Its a damn shame, but oh well! Ashley actually told me we can vote out whoever I want this time "no questions asked". Because they gave me so much sh*t when they wanted to vote out Shorty, knowing that I didn't want to. So, now is the time for them to just f*cking let it go and vote out Outlast or Tre. They were so worried about Shorty, but now he's gone, so they just shouldn't have a problem with voting out someone other than Gabe or Myself.

If they bring up voting out Gabe, I WILL get extremely vocal. I've tended not to get too vocal for fear of them just saying "f*ck this sh*t" and voting me out. But I will get in their face if they go back on what they said about voting out Tre/Outlast/someone else who's name is not Gabe or Phil.

[Phil]

Oh, I also want to apologize if y'all are frustrated with Gabe's sudden inactivity, but I'm gonna give him the benefit of the doubt and say something happend that's beyond his control. Because this is very unlike him. And my strategy is to get him as far as possible regardless of if he shows up for the remainder of this game or not. I'm not sorry about it, and I will do my best to take him as far as I can even if he's inactive. Its a strategy I have that he be around, and sometimes you don't always agree with strategic decisions, but they are what they are (see: challenge throwing). I will also do my best to get a hold of him and make sure he gets back in this, LOL.

[Phil]

I would like to weigh in on the Gabe situation. I totally get why you would want to boot him, but I also would like to make a defense of him at this moment. Gabe has only missed one deadline. It is POSSIBLE that he misses this next deadline, but that would still only be the second time he missed. After that, I think it is fair game to eliminate him based on the three strike rule or whatever.

As far as I know, both Tre and Outlast have both missed more than one deadline (and I realize they weren't back to back, but they still missed more than one deadline).

I'm trying my hardest to get Gabe back in this. I'm pretty much stalking the sh*t out of him. And given the fact that I've found half of the cast on Facebook anyway (everyone at the merge minus Ashley/Tre/Outcast), I'm pretty sure I can get his a** back.

[Phil]

So I think Gabe is gonna get voted out unless he magically shows up on Saturday morning. I've already resigned to losing the idol that way, which is really sad. It's really sad.

But anyway, I also tried to put a plan into motion with Ashley and Dewie to get them to get someone to flip on Outlast. I don't have high hopes that it works, but this conversation took place between me and Ashley:

Ashley: hopefully he comes back… but yeah vote for Outlast, I'll vote for Outlast, we'll make Dewsh vote for Outlast.. and I'll try and convince other people its a good idea haha
Phil: haha ok. yeah basically sell it that if gabe is gonna flunk out of this game next round anyway, take this chance to get rid of outlast. oh yeah and not me. cuz i suck at challenges and i'm really f*cking dumb.
Ashley: and an a**hole… that will sell them hahaha. but yeah it seems they are down with taking out outlast… PLAN IS IN MOTIONNN
Phil: sweet whatever works!

So hopefully a plan IS put into motion to actually get rid of Outlast. BECAUSE REALLY WHY NOT. They should be used to taking the easy way out of doing anything, so just cut Outlast now and rely on Gabe idling out. EXCEPT IM GONNA HOPE AGAINST HOPE HE DOESNT ACTUALLY IDLE OUT. But yeah.... if Gabe goes, then I guess that's that and I still have to move on and hope I can squeeze my way into F6. My F4 goal is just seeming so out of reach right now. I've demoted myself to F6, HAH.

UGH FML.

[Phil]

Too bad so sad, Outlast. We tried to warn you ages ago that the other favorites didn't give a f*ck about you. And now you're 8th. BYE.

[Phil]

So Dewie messages me:

Dewie:Sorry buddy, I have been busy with the UC8 premiere, did someone tell you the vote was going to be outlast or did you just vote that way for the hell of it?
Phil: i voted for outlast because i've voted for him twice already, lol.
Dewie: O well yea the vote changed from Gabe to outlast because they are figuring Gabe will just be booted and they didnt want to waste a TC to vote him off.
Phil: yeah i think that was a smarter move. just take the opportunity to do it now.

I have to figure out the significance of this question. OF COURSE I voted for Outlast. WHO else would I vote for? Jesus. And it wasn't like "sorry I didn't tell you we were voting for Outlast" or anything like that. Does he think that I was like .. not supposed to know? IDG why he even asked the question, or phrased it in that Way. But then he goes on to explain that the vote was supposed to be for Gabe but then "they" are figuring Gabe will just be booted anyway. OF COURSE Gabe is going to be booted next if he doesn't show up. The host said so. Plus, in an earlier message, Dewie was still confused about if Gabe was going to be booted this TC or not, and I had to like drill it into him that we should vote Outlast now and let Gabe idle next TC which would propel us to the F6. I then said the same thing to Ashley (posted above), and made an argument to make an argument to the others to vote out Outlast now and let Gabe idle out. So why does Dewie feel the need to explain the process to me? Of course I had something to do with this vote. I'm not under the illusion that I'm pulling any strings here, but I was very adamant about allowing Gabe to idle out of this game later and take out Outlast while we had the chance. And I swayed Ashley to make an argument in that position. So.... I didn't just vote for Outlast for the hell of it. Who's idea was it to get rid of Outlast now rather than later?



OK then like, minutes later, he messages me again:


Dewie: Hey you know that I like you right? Like I want us to be friends after this game.


It begins. In true Judge Judy fashion, I am to cut the crap and get to the damn point. Here we go.

Phil: Of course. And don't worry, we will. But is this the part where you explain that you're going to vote me out after Gabe gets booted?
Dewie: No I am not going to put your name down ever. But there is going to come a point when it is going to be difficult for me... I am going to try and get you to the top 5 but at that point I think I will be outnumbered and it will be you. So at that point you need to win immunity if you want to be safe.
Phil: I know my days are numbered which is why I had pushed for Outlast and Tre to go before Shorty. Obviously i have been trying to get to F4 but i have basically demoted myself to the F6 with the fans slaughter and gabe's mysterious disappearance. to be honest i dont see why it cant be you me kenny and ashley in the F4. i know i basically have no shot beyond that point but i figured at least still try to get there.
Dewie: Jon is basically an idiot who will not win a challenge and will do whatever Ashley tells him to do, which is why Ashley wants him at the end. Ashley and I go way back to like my first days ever being on the site which is why I am not going to go against her. Right now if Gabe gets booted for being inactive, i am going to try and make a case for you over Tre to be in the F5. I will let you know what they are thinking. If I think you are in serious trouble I guess I can throw the mission so that you will have a better chance at immunity. And once final 5 hits I can throw the mission again since I honestly think I am the biggest threat to you winning the immunity.
Phil: yeah i will try to win immunity of course. my times are usually bad due to my slow internet and this site takes a long time to load, lol. in the meantime, yeah i will try to make a case for me to stay over tre at the very least
Dewie: I mean I honestly think if I wanted to win immunity the rest of the way you are the only one who could stop me, so if I stop trying to win immunity you should be able to get it.



A few things made : during that whole conversation. Why is it that literally every game I play in, I need to immunity whore my to the end? I have been more or less throwing these challenges (minus the endurance one) so that they would see me as a non-threat. And yet I'm still considered the biggest threat after the self-proclaimed challenge master? Oh, thanks a lot, Dewie, you'll throw the challenge so I can win. I mean, I'm NOT banking on me even doing well in the next challenges. I am having problems with speed on this internet so I know I pretty much don't have a shot but I will try hahaha.

Also, like, Dewie doesn't want to get rid of Jon before the F4 because he's Ashley's b*tch. If Jon is Ashley's b*tch, and Dewie refuses to get rid of him for the simple fact that he is Ashley's b*tch, doesn't that make Dewie Ashley's b*tch too? I can see how Ashley won her previous season. (JK I have no idea how she won, I didn't attempt to find out). But anyway. Ok, I totally get that he doesn't want to betray her or whatever, but I also haven't quite figured out if they are actually F2 partners or not. Because Dewie has sort of got Kenny on his side, and Ashley apparently has Jon on her side? So WTF happens at F4 with them? Wouldn't Dewie want to remove Jon from the equation altogether? Or maybe Dewie is full of sh*t. Anyway, its kind of an interesting tidbit of information. Fine, if Ashley wants to string Jon along because he's her b*tch, then I'm gonna do the same f*cking thing. I will be Ashley's b*tch, too!

Also, Dewie is basically like "I can take you to F5, but after that we are pretty much outnumbered". Well, I'm really trying to work on Ashley, and maybe he thinks I'm not trying with her. I have no idea if its working, but whatever. But that basically just means that the F4 between Jon/Kenny/Ashley/Dewie is way strong and they really are just dragging Jon along cuz he's a f*cking idiot. But I want to be their f*cking idiot, not Jon. In fact that's what I've been trying to portray, even though I have apparently been failing epically.

I'm honestly not sure what they expect to happen if the F4 is Dewie/Kenny/Ashley/Jon. But there's also noooo way I could ever know, so whatever. I just need to keep working on both Dewie and Ashley, because it sounds like they each sort of control Kenny/Jon. **. Oh, and I will start to try in the challenges, even though I'm not banking on it at all.

And I'll of course continue to try to get a hold of Gabe and get my idol back. That would solve a lot of problems

[Phil]

OMG lol @ Dewie making such a fuss about this challenge. If anyone should be concerned, it should be me. But with the Gabe situation, isn't this round pretty much a wash anyway? If Gabe self votes, he's out and that's that. The rules clearly state that the winner will secure a spot in the F6, so I can't imagine anyone being booted at the same time as Gabe being medivaced.

[Nate]

At least someone here has a brain...

[Phil]

Speed/time challenges are not my friend.

#WildernessProblems

[Phil]

So my approach for this vote is pretty straightforward. Dewie and Ashley know I'm voting for Tre, and I'm not gonna push the issue too much because I've pretty much made my arguments to them in previous rounds. About 4 rounds ago, I had talked to Ashley and I had told her that I wanted Shorty/Outlast/Tre gone back-to-back-to-back. Then they had the bright idea to vote out Buddy and f*ck everything up. But Ashley still maintained that those three would be the next to go. It was a freakin miracle that they actually voted for Outlast last round, and I'm not expecting them to stick with our agreement, but I'm gonna push for it anyway.

Maybe guilt trip them a little bit. I honestly didn't say much to Dewie other than that I'm voting for Tre. I almost threw in a "and I suggest you do to" bit to make him paranoid about the idol, but I don't want them splitting their votes on me/Gabe. I'd rather just have them vote out Gabe if they're going to vote out Gabe. But anyway, I'm trying to make Dewie a little paranoid about the idol. It MAY have worked, because he responded "I might throw a vote that way too" which is code for "I'm really paranoid about the idol so I'm gonna put a vote on someone else in case its played." Dewie is also probably just trying to save face because he likes to pretend he has my best intrests at hand, when its painfully obvious he doesn't.

Like, before Gabe showed up, Dewie was just like "I will try to get you to the F5, but after that we're outnumbered." It's just his way of pretending he's helping me and then reaching a point where its not his fault if I get voted out. Which is just complete bullsh*t. OMG I am not that stupid. But whatever. At the same time I am trying to make Ashley paranoid of Dewie, after Dewie made that comment about Jon being Ashley's b*tch. So, I'm still going to try to work on Ashley voting for Tre. I think its a longshot, but its worth hoping for. At this point, I don't think Dewie and Ashley would actually want to get rid of me, but I'm still paranoid as sh*t so whatever.

I just have this fantasy of using my idol against Jon at F5 so that's pretty much my ultimate goal right now. And I'm gonna try my hardest to make the F6. Ashley said she'd feel like a sh*tty person if she voted out someone who's been around all game (aka Tre, lol) versus someone who was gone for "weeks" (Gabe, even though it was only 9 days). So, ok lets say she votes out Gabe now because she thinks Tre deserves it more than him. There is no way she'd be able to use the same reasoning to get rid of me next round over Tre. So, I have hope that I could convince her to get rid of Tre next round if she's not down with getting out Tre this round.

Still praying that I make the F5 though!!!!

[Phil]

Me after reading Gabe's TC answer, naturally

[Phil]

I'm sad. Also I know its not a big deal but Ashley was like " I'm not going to leave you in the dark. I'll let you know for sure what I am thinking and doing when I figure it out." Yeah.... she never told me what she was doing. Which in itself let me know what she was doing, but still. What a dumby.

This sucks cuz now I'm freakin' out about whether or not I should use my idol. This sucks sucks sucks, lmfao. There's no way I can win this challenge because they can all just box me in and make me get out early. I may just have to use my idol this round. No one has asked me about the idol recently. I wonder if they expected me to play it this round. I also got a vote and I haven't discovered if it was from Gabe yet, or someone else, LOL. Dewie said he'd throw a vote to Tre, and Tre got two votes. So either Tre got votes from me and Gabe, or me and Dewie. It's very possible Gabe just voted for me in case the favorites voted for me. EVEN THOUGH THAT WOULD BE VERY RUDE LOL. I'll ask him tomorrow and he'll tell me, and if he voted for me I'll just laugh it off. But actually, that would be nice if he voted for me, because then it would mean that Dewie followed through with voting for Tre. But...meh. If he didn't..whatever.

My time is coming and I'm sad about it.

[Phil]

I'm channeling my inner Janelle Pierzina and I'm gonna tear this sh*t up because what else is there to do?



I hope they start coming to me asking what I want to do, as if it f*cking matters. Dewie has already run to me like, WE SHOULD VOTE OUT TRE. OMG I HOPE TRE DOESN'T HAVE AN IDOL. I WANNA SPLIT THE VOTES BUT I JUST DONT KNOW HOW. Um....that is your f*ckin problem and you need to figure it out. In the meantime, I'm gonna tell Tre to play an idol if he has it. But :. THAT WOULD BE f*ckING AMAZING IF TRE HAD AN IDOL. I'd totally try to be his new ally, HAH. But >_________> :eyes At this point, its obvious that the favorites are pissed. But I don't even care, because:



If all five of them had shown up, they could have EASILY gotten me out. But Tre f*cked up and now Kenny is pissed!!!! Works for me! Y'know, its always a dream to think that suddenly things will get dramatic once the majority has to start eating eachother, but I totally predict it will be LAME.



Just..gotta f*ck sh*t up and win that F4 immunity.

[Phil]

Dewie and Kenny want me to vote out Tre. I said yes.
Ashley wants me to vote Kenny. I said yes.

My strategy right now is to get Kenny voted out. Ashley says she can get Tre to do it easy. Apparently getting Jon to vote Kenny will be tricky, but whatever. Again..not my problem. It's hers. But, hopefully she can get Jon to vote out Kenny.

That will isolate Dewie and maybe I can do some damage control at that point to get him to turn on Ashley/Jon/Tre. Ashley/Tre are tight, and I totally thought Ashley/Jon were tight just based on what Dewie said. But apparently not. Whatever. Still, I think I'd rather try to do damage control with Dewie later and get him to be on my side, then plan to blindside Jon.

I know Dewie is a dewsh, but I still like him and I dunno I don't really think he has a shot at winning. I think this is Ashley's and my game to lose. But Ashley's got it easy since she doesn't really have to win any challenges. I'm hoping its a F3 so all I have to do is win one more challenge. Then I think I've got this. So I'm still thinking of a way to make the F3 WITHOUT immunity. Cuz thats what prudent people do. Back up plan! I basically know that I cannot cannot rely on Ashley/Tre/Jon in a F4 situation where I don't have immunity. BUT if Dewie isn't too butthurt about me voting out Kenny, but is butthurt enough about the others voting out Kenny, maybe I can blindside Jon with my idol. And maybe Dewie will win Immunity at F4, I'll have my idol, so one of Jon/Ashley/Tre will go. And if Jon is apparently loyal to Dewie/Kenny, but ends up switching this round, maybe Dewie will hold it against him and vote with me against Jon. Then at F4, if I don't have immunity, I would basically try to sell it to Dewie that Ashley wanted to drag Jon/Tre as easy people to beat in the finals, and that we need to force a tie between Ashley/Tre at F4. And go to rocks if we need to. But, then again, its announced that its a F3, he'll vote me out because its an easy way for him to get to the end.

Just thinkin' through things. I like Dewie, but if he was gone, it might be good for me.

[Phil]

Ideally, I want Tre and Kenny out next, HAHAHA. Yet, if it goes to rocks, that would be hilarious. Dewie/Kenny/Jon all tried to get me to vote out Ashley this round. It was actually amazing to see them come to me. Well, I went to Jon and figured out what he wanted. He thinks Dewie and Ashley are the biggest threats to win. THEREFORE I WANT DEWIE AND ASHLEY IN THE F4 WITH ME. It may seem counter intuitive, but unlike them, I'm not playing TO WIN. I'm playing to GET TO THE FINAL TRIBAL COUNCIL. I think I stand a GREAT shot at winning if I make it. So in that sense, I am playing to win. But me playing to win is not me playing to choose who sits next to me in the F3 (ugh, I'm going on the assumption that its a F3 aren't I?). ANYWAY, whatever. No all I'm doing is trying to set myself up in the best possible situation at the F4 so that I at least have a chance at surviving if I don't win Immunity.

Listen, if someone says so and so is a threat to win, then I want that person at the next round with me so that I can fall back and be like "Ashley/Dewie is a huge threat, we need to get rid of them now". I am willing to go to rocks at F4 if I have to, because I have nothing to lose. If I don't win Immunity, I'm more or less dead anyway, so I will try to tie it and let it go to rocks. By having Dewie AND Ashley in the F4, it gives me an option for who to target if one of them wins immunity. What if I went to the F4 with two lame people and one threat? And what if that threat wins Immunity? Then who's gonna get voted out? Me. So yeah, I have to think about the F4 TC. Not the FTC. I know I can defend my game at the FTC if I get there, so I'm not worried about it.

If Kenny goes, I want Tre to go next. Sounds weird, but its true. If Tre goes, I want Kenny to go next, for sure. If Dewie/Ashley/Jon get rocked out, then, hmmm. A lot of things could happen. In the end, I'm not really worried about it. I really wanted this TC to be a tie because I really want to see how the lines are drawn, for real. They tried to spin it on me and get me to make the decision, but no, I do not make decisions for y'all. I will make decisions for myself, and I don't even really care about the consequences of this TC because I'm immune next TC. AND if I win Immunity, I get to basically choose one of y'all to be immune with me.

I do not want to be the one to switch, because I want someone to make an action that will have consequences for them and others. I am trying to stir the pot up. I am getting information from them, and it is good.

[Phil]

This tie is so good for me right now. I love that they are split. And I love that it tied because they are forced to make their own decisions. OF COURSE I am not gonna vote any way that AVOIDS A TIE. I WANT A TIE!

[Phil]

The way she is talking, I am starting to think that Ashley might have that Chie idol tucked away somewhere. I may be just too hopeful, or reading too much into how she says things, but maybe she does.

Basically its gonna be me and Ashley vs Dewie/Kenny/Jon. MY PLAN TO SPLIT THEM UP WORKED ALMOST PERFECTLY. I would have liked them to go to rocks, but it is what it is. They're split up. They all targeted eachother. Jon revealed he thinks Dewie/Ashley are the biggest threats. Kenny wants Ashley gone now because Ashley wants Kenny gone. Jon voted for Kenny, but then switched his vote to Tre which caused this tie in the first place which is really lols. Ashley's pissed at everyone but me. I'm trying to make Kenny and Dewie want to vote me next round because I have my idol and I don't even care if they do.

I definitely plan to stick with Ashley. And try to win Immunity. She said "one of us needs to win Immunity next round", and "over my dead body is Kenny going to go out before one of us". This leads me to believe she has a trick up her sleeve. Because that's kind of exactly how I am thinking. Only one of us needs to win Immunity. I mean only one of us CAN, but if one of us DOES, Kenny is gone gone gone. And, again, over my dead body will Kenny leave before me. I can't exactly guarantee that but my plan will be to get everyone to vote for me, and then I'll tell Ashley to vote with me against Kenny. I HAVENT REVEALED YET THAT I HAVE THE IDOL. I don't plan to until after the Immunity challenge results. I don't want to be in a situation where Ashley/Me are both without immunity and I am faced with the temptation of using it on her if Dewie/Jon/Kenny decide to vote for her. I really hope that they try to vote for me tbqh. So I'm gonna act really sketchy towards them and make them kinda pissed at me, or whatever. Unfortunately, Ashley is doing a good job making them pissed at her. Calling Jon a pussy (WHICH HE IS) and yelling at Kenny.

Its so hard to tell right now if they are going to try to gun for Ashley next round, or if they're going to gun for me. I NEED THEM TO GUN FOR ME, SO BADLY. But whatever. If neither Ashley nor myself win the next IC, and Ashley ends up going, I won't cry about it. I'm here for me.

BUT IF ASHLEY HAS THAT ORIGINAL CHIE IDOL I MAY JIZZ IN MY PANTS. But....maybe I'm getting my hopes up. There has just literally been no talk about the Chie idol. Oh, and Ashley keeps saying stuff like "I am pretty sure _____ doesn't have it", etc, which is exactly what I said about people. But she also seemed very paranoid about the idol, and then went back on it and was like, "I'm not gonna think about idols for the rest of the game", which is maybe her way of trying to divert attention away from the fact that she has it. HAHA. I may be reading too much into it but I can't help it!