Your Confessional

[Nate]

This will be your confessional for the entire season. Nobody but you and the moderators will be able to see this thread, unless you give away your password.

DO NOT give your password to anyone else playing in the game. If I find out you gave up your password to any player in the game, you will be removed from the game.

Please post in your confessionals at least once a round, preferably more. If you fail to post the minimum amount of confessionals after 3 warnings, you will be removed from the game.

You may either post in here the entire time, or you can make a thread for each week, etc. whatever works best for you.

Have fun and please be as dramatic and mean as possible.

Love (hate),
Nate Probst

[Phil]

OK. Who are da moderators?

Edit: Anyone who reads this should just like this post so I know who is gonna be all up in this forum.

[Nate]

Jun 22, 2015 1:07:57 GMT -5 Phil said:

OK. Who are da moderators?

Edit: Anyone who reads this should just like this post so I know who is gonna be all up in this forum.

Me, JC and Brooke.

[Phil]

So for the Idol, we are not even allowed to talk among our tribemates where we have searched?

In other news, I have a confessional:

So, I haven't really talked to Kaitlyn or Dusty yet, so I was a little bit nervous about what they think about me n sh*t. I'm all like, well I'll just have to make sure I'm cool with James and Alex and Dewie, and if the three of them don't ever wanna vote me out from this tribe, then I won't really have to worry about Kaitlyn and Dusty trying to ever get me out in the future. Then magically I get a message from both James and Dewie about working together n sh*t, so I'm like whew this is good. And then magically they both try to set up a majority four alliance with me/James/Dewie/Alex. I'm like, ok this is great! This is what I already wanted, lolz. So yeah I agree. Then James keeps asking me what I think about Kaitlyn and Dusty and I'm just like, um, I really don't have an opinion on them. They can go if you wanna set up this alliance with me Dewie and Alex. So I go to Dewie and I tell him what James said and I'm like yeah, he keeps asking me what I think, so if you wanna set up this alliance, let's just confirm it. Cuz I thought it was already kinda confirmed, but I guess not. So ok then I guess James and Dewie confirm it with eachother, so I message Alex and confirm it with him and ok I guess we're good. Not sure Dewie and Alex have talked about it explicitly. It seems like Alex is a actually in James's back pocket right now, just as he said. "Alex is in my back pocket so we're good." LOL BOLD, JAMES. YOU BETTA NOT BE SAYING THAT ABOUT ME.

Anyway, I'm good with this alliance. I still don't trust everyone. I know James really wants me to trust him, but I simply cannot blindly trust someone, LOL. I know Dewie is making a bunch of deals, and I'm pretty sure he's got a lot of back up options for when we swap/merge whatever. I made a few alliances as well as security, once the cast was revealed but before the tribes were revealed. It worked out that I have someone on each tribe that I can probably get information from in case things go awry. Some of my other allies include:

Sidelined: Stan, Vova. I talked to both of these fellas before we were split up, and I agreed with each of them to keep my ears open and if I hear anything about them in this game, I'll let em know. I asked them both to keep their ears open for me and let me know if they hear if I'm in trouble or anything. I think there will ultimately be a lot of cross tribal communication so if I can get ears out there, that would be great.

Strategy: Outlast. We have a secret alliance. We call it our AIM alliance because once the cast was revealed, we started talking on AIM. This is our bond, yo. So, yeah, tbh I think this is one of my stronger secret alliances. Hopefully we both can hold it together for a swap/merge and share a bunch of information and take this game by storm.

Social: Ashley, Bryan, Jimmy. I talked to these peeps before we were split into tribes as well. Bryan is another secret alliance that I hope will be strong despite tribal lines. I don't know Bryan well, but we also talked via AIM for a little bit and we've also talked outside this board about other things. TBH I hope he wants to work with me if we swap/merge. Jimmy, we have this hometown pride thing going on. Not sure how strong our alliance will be, but its something to fall back on. Ashley, well, I hope Ashley survives a little bit. I think she'll be targeted for being a two-time winner, but I also think she can use that to her advantage to make it a way into the game a little bit, hoping that people will think they can get rid of her later. TBH I wouldn't mind aligning with her again and going kinda far. I think people *WILL* want to prevent her from getting too close to the end, though, so I'm not really that worried about a threepeat.

That's all I guess. I'll continue to work on fostering my relationships with my current allies, and keeping myself relevant to my cross-tribal allies with the hopes that I can fall back on them or make them blossom in the future.

[Phil]

Meanwhile at the Giong Tribe's puzzle board:



Princess Kaitlyn takes a seat on the highest branch, overlooking the puzzle. "I won't be able to help, I don't get it."
Dewie, drowning in puzzle pieces furiously trying to uphold the honor of being selected to be on this tribe "Then shut up"
Princess Kaitlyn continues to attempt to understand the puzzle, trailing approximately 25 years behind everyone else who understands the puzzle is whack as f*ck (lv u nte).
DEWIE ALEX PHIL (and Dusty) ARE DA TRUE MVPs and get this sh*t together.
Beta Princess James can't even outshine the Alpha's b*tching as he continues to proclaim that our answers are not matching up, and that our puzzle isn't fitting together. Somehow, he finds magic piece number 22, which must have lit a lightbulb in Alpha Princess because:

SUDDENLY, PRINCESS KAITLYN HAS A REVELATION THAT WE'RE WRONG.

"ARE OYU BLINDE" - Princess Kaitlyn, circa 1384 A.D

We literally just finished the challenge Kaitlyn. Yes I am Blinde.

[Phil]

Episode Two Confessional:

I'M SO STUPID. I FORGOT TO SEARCH FOR THE IDOL FOR LIKE THREE DAYS.



Y U NO HAVE BRAIN!!!!!!!?

Anyway, I'm back on track, b*tches! And...I don't have the idol nor do I have a reward because I'm sitting here with my thumb up my butt and I get to pick last and I pick reeds and who the f*ck would want reeds? AMIRITE? But anyway .. whatever!

YES I'm not gonna get last place or second to last place. Kyle and Jamie can go honey, they can go! I don't know them anyway, they were never gonna be part of my game, so they can go!

Things are lookin real good with this whole "three tribes win immunity" thing goin on this round. I'M GETTING GOOD VIBES. We cannot lose and let yellow get the last laugh. YELLOW NEEDS TO LOSE.

Bye.

[Phil]

DAAAMN! Kaitlyn got SASSY in the thread, too.

Giong Tribe schedules the challenge at 10:30.
Kaitlyn says she might not even show up.
Kaitlyn decides to try to start the challenge early.
Phil shows up ON TIME and discovers the mad sh*t Kaitlyn is talking about him for not being online at 10:00.
Giong Tribe is "waiting on" Phil even though PHIL ISN'T EVEN LATE

Kaitlyn: "I'm starting a PM anyway and when he decides to show up we can go. But we NEED to start no later than 1030 or I'm leaving"



Literally no one cares if you have to go to bed at 10:30 because you decided to get a job. LITERALLY NO ONE.

In other news, James told me that Kaitlyn told him that someone told her that James/Alex/Me are a trio. Interesting considering we're all actually in an alliance. Dewie is in my alliance as well, and I definitely do NOT consider us three to be a trio. It might make Dewie scared to hear that, but hopefully it's just someone talking sh*t about us rather than Dewie revealing that we actually are an alliance. SINCE DEWIE IS SUPPOSED TO BE WITH US. Also it would be stupid of him to call us out since anyone would need a majority to go against us, and Dewie wouldn't unless he had majority. I'm also not worried about idols because idols shouldn't be played this early. IT'S STUPID.

But hopefully we win the challenge. Alex got his, and I got 6/10. Kaitlyn got two out of 10. Sounds about right.

I'm also concerned that Kaitlyn and Dusty text on the regular. And Kaitlyn is posting about it in public. Real smart. Let everyone know how close y'all are. The rest of us don't text, so you're really putting yourself out there. Anyway, I hope her attitude, her rumor spreading, and her posts about texting with Dusty ruin her game if we ever go to Tribal Council. I'm really annoyed with her right now. She was a huge b*tch today.

[Phil]

So I'm trying to be nice to Dusty cuz I'm pretty sure he doesn't trust me slash doesn't really care about working with me. Since Kaitlyn and Dusty are tight and Kaitlyn already thinks me/Alex/James are a trio, Dusty probably doesn't give a f*ck about me. So I'm sucking up to him and being nice with the hopes that if he ever needs to target someone he won't target me. I tried to start some small talk with him about the rewards and such, since we think that Kaitlyn or Dusty have won them. Or James/Dewie/Alex is lying about getting anything in reward. Cuz...I don't even know what is going on with the rewards. YOU'D THINK WE'D GET *SOMETHING* Goddamn.

Also Princess Kaitlyn was at it again with the sass during the challenge. She can't stay up for the challenge, but she can allow Dusty to WAKE HER UP to tell her we won and then post? Like... really? HE... WOKE YOU UP. If you need sleep so badly you shouldn't even like.. be ok with that. SO WEIRD.

BUT ANYWAY WE WON OUR CHALLENGE SO I'M HAPPY. Also like I really just want to vote out Kaitlyn but also trust Dusty. Dusty seems nice but I just don't think he f*cking cares about talking to me. Like, I talked to Alex and he's all "well we can just split the vote between Dusty and Kaitlyn if we go to TC in case one of them has the idol". Which yeah, we could do that. It would be the smartest if us four are legit together. But I'm gonna def vote for Kaitlyn and NOT Dusty. I will NOT be conned into voting Dusty because we'd vote out Kaitlyn in a re-vote and I don't want to be the person who votes for the person who stays. Even though that's sort of my M.O. But.... we won so WHATEVER. We'll see if we stick in these four tribes or if we get swapped up soon.

Edit: HOW does Dusty have 21 confessional posts when we as a tribe have not had to do anything. This kid is over playing for the current situation. He has something special. AHH!

[Phil]

Also when I post something and 10 people like it within the time it takes me to reload the page:

[Phil]

WELL THEN. I just received a clue to the hidden immunity idol, and I went and solved the giant crytpogram and discovered that guessing numbers is pointless! Well, I did what the cryptogram said: "TO TRACK THE IDOL AND OBTAIN REWARDS PRIVATE MESSAGE NATE SAYING THIS QUOTE". So I did that.

...

Nate: You do not find the idol.



#&$*#*!@

So, someone else had to have found it. Cuz I think I got the cryptogram correct. Unfortunately I don't really know who got it, but I still think DUSTY got it. Because hopefully James, Alex, and Dewie would have said something about getting a clue. I can't see them not saying anything about the idol, but like, I'd hope they would say something about it, and especially about the clue. But whatever. I'm pretty sure Dusty or Kaitlyn got the clue, and that Dusty solved it. I don't really see Kaitlyn going through all the effort to solve the puzzle. And like I said, Dusty has a million posts in his confessionals so what else does he have to talk about other than finding clues and finding idols? I mean C'MON RIGHT?

So.. I mentioned how Kaitlyn is trying to say that Me/James/Alex are at trio. This spells trouble for us because DEWIE already knows we are in an alliance (WITH DEWIE). But, I wonder if this would make Dewie uncomfortable. I'm now on a mission to make sure Dewie feels 100% comfortable with me and that I'm not with James and Alex. James and Alex are having their showmance, and I'm trying to distance myself from them. I need a bromance with Dewie so that the tribe can basically be split 2-2-2. Because if we go to Tribal Council, we need to split our votes 2-2-2. Two on Kaitlyn, two on Dusty, and two on whoever Kaitlyn/Dusty decide. So, I messaged Dewie right away explaining that I got the clue to the idol and that I solved the clue and that I messaged Nate with the answer and came up short. It's pretty clear the idol is gone. I followed the instructions perfectly. So, I haven't told James or Alex yet. I will eventually, but I need to make sure I tell Dewie first, and that Dewie knows I'm telling him first. If he ever thinks I'm telling James or Alex anything before him, it would jeopardize our majority alliance. Especially since we don't have the idol. Now, James or Alex COULD be lying, and it's possible that they found it, but I just don't see them not telling me. SO ALL SIGNS POINT TO DUSTY TBH. Dusty is smart. Dusty knows how to do sh*t. Dusty is dangerous. This is making me want to get Dusty out even more. I... don't think he would try to play the idol if we went to TC. All depends on if Kaitlyn/Dusty have been trying to get Dewie on their side. But I'm now gonna try to reel Dewie in more in case there were any doubts. He trash talks Kaitlyn, and says he's worried about Kaitlyn/Dusty. They have made their alliance SO obvious. Like, "I texted Kaitlyn" and "I texted Dusty". Like, they have INSTANT communication. NO THIS IS NOT OK. One of them has to go. FAST. Or, if Dusty messages me about the reward anytime, I just tell him what I found and be like "so, do you wanna work together on this?" And just share what I have. And then see how his response is. If he tells me he found it, or if he's like "I solved it but didn't find it". Just gauge his reaction or some sh*t. We'll see what I think. I asked him about the reward and he just said "I have no clue". Will he think about messaging me when he finds out he didn't get the latest clue? Or is he just gonna sit back with his idol. His actions will tell me whether or not he has it, tbh. I'm gonna have to try to keep talking to Dusty (even though its soooo harddd for meee omggg), to see if I can trust him or not. Like I said, I still want to like...somehow cozy up to him. Or get him the f*ck out.

I mean, I hope we just keep winning immunity as long as we're in this tribe, but, I'm also hoping we lose one so we can vote one of them out and potentially flush the idol or get rid of it completely. But, I'm not willing to throw the challenge. It's still super useful information moving forward. If I'm on a tribe with Dusty, I'll definitely be cozying up to him as a fellow Giong. Same with Kaitlyn, I guess. But if I'm on a tribe with them together and I find myself in the minority, I'll need to find a way to jump ship so that the others eat them before they eat me, and I'll just have to wait it out and hope I can escape that tribe, hahaha. For me, this is all about escaping to the next phase. I feel pretty safe now, but any switch could f*ck me over. So I'm glad I have the idol intel. Or at least some of it.

This game is gonna get interesting!

Also...kudos to Nate. That was a really fun puzzle tbh. DAMMIT THOUGH THAT I GOT TO IT TOO LATE. I'm gonna still take a look at it later to make sure I didn't make any mistakes cuz I'd hate to have done that, LOL.

[Phil]

So I get a PM from Dewie and James, and its all like "JAMES is saying split the vote between Dusty and Kaitlyn, and we'll vote Kaitlyn out in revote". I'm like, cool. LOL I'm like, cool that this is JAMES'S plan even though its the *only* plan that would have ever been thought up. I'm glad his name is being thrown around as in like, JAMES wants us to do this and JAMES is doing that. Because then hopefully Kaitlyn and Dusty vote for James rather than me.

I literally have not talked to Kaitlyn, which is bad LOL. I've only talked to Dusty a little bit and I already told you how I feel about it. I don't think he wants to work with me at ALLL. Plus, I'm CONVINCED he has the idol and he lied about not knowing anything about the reward. I mean, at least I think he lied, since I still think he's the one who most likely has the idol.

I didn't really want to vote for Dusty originally, but now that I figure he has the idol and is tight with Kaitlyn, I really don't care. Their alliance is super obvious, they don't talk to me, and they have the idol between them. Why wouldn't I want to vote them? Kaitlyn has said that James/Me/Alex area trio, which isn't actually true, and I just don't trust them. So, yeah I have no problem with voting for Dusty now. I kiiiinda didn't want to vote for the person who was gonna stay, but, now I don't really care.

Honestly, I'm gonna just tell Dusty that I'm voting for Kaitlyn. That way, if Dusty thinks no one is voting for him, he might be tempted to play the idol. I MEAN WOULD HE DO THAT THIS EARLY? Like, I don't really know LOL. But, its worth a shot to try to get the idol played on Kaitlyn and send Dusty packing in a surprise 2-2-2 vote / revote. I just don't want to get any votes.

So, I'm trying to still stay super close with Dewie. Make him trust me trust me trust me. Please Dewie. I'm still trying to sell this Me/Dewie, James/Alex, Kaitlyn/Dusty tribal split, so that whatever Dewie does, it'll be in my best interests. Like, let's say Kaitlyn/Dusty are trying to get Dewie to go against Alex/James/Me. I'm gonna HOPE that Dewie sees James/Alex as a bigger pair than me/James or me/Alex, and that if somehow Dewie did want to deflect on the alliance, that he'd do it against James or Alex and NOT on me.

BUT this is where my paranoia comes in, because its making me think of all these extra scenarios rather than just blindly following my alliance. Even though I think the plan will work with the 2-2-2 split, I just don't want to find myself in jeopardy at ALL.

But, I also don't want to go OUT OF MY WAY to lie to Dusty and then f*cking vote for him. Because there's a chance that he doesn't have the idol and that he still stays, and that I end up on a tribe with him having lied to him AND voted for him. So tbh, if Dusty survives and I end up on a tribe with him and his potential idol, Ima have to come up with an excuse and be like, yeah James said you had an idol and that we should split votes and blah blah blah. I'm probably making it more complicated than it is, but I'm ready to talk my way out of any situation.

But first, I need to make sure that Dewie wants to not vote for me, and hopefully if Kaitlyn/Dusty approach him, he'll convince them not to. Or hopefully Dusty realizes that Kaitlyn is a lost cause and agrees to vote her out. Then me voting for him will look even worse. Whatever, I'm still gonna blame James, since he's the one who "came up with the plan"...

[Phil]

Tribal Council #6
Giong Tribe

I'm voting for Dusty.
I don't trust you. You're trying to get me out. You lied to me in PM by saying no one talks to you when I've tried a few times. I think you have the idol and lied about not knowing anything about clues. You're tight with Kaitlyn. and you're probably going to stay because the plan is to get Kaitlyn out. I hope you play an idol on Kaitlyn and get voted out instead.

[Phil]

It sucks that I am getting votes from Kaitlyn and Dusty. Its like being the pawn in Big Brother. You know you're getting votes and with the current plan, you'll be involved in a tie. It's like I'm taking one for the alliance, and its really annoying because I hate being put at risk like this. I hate having to trust people. But I'm gonna trust Dewie James and Alex. Kaitlyn and Dusty have approached James trying to get him to vote me out, so I just have to trust that James won't. It really sucks even more having to go through two votes if it does tie. But yeah I'm just trusting James on this one (and Alex and Dewie). I just hate being nervous. It really ruins my day smilesmile.

[Phil]

LOLMG So I was loitering around the board seeing if TC results would come up, and I saw the post in the Giong Tribe Campground was from Dusty. And I'm like, ooh a new post. And he writes "Well good luck guys." And I'm like OMG WERE RESULTS UP WAS HE VOTED OUT IS HE WISHING US LUCK OMG IS HE GONE? And then I check for more posts and results aren't up. I got all excited for nothing.

[Phil]

LOLMFG! I was cackling so hard when James's name came up and not mine. TROLOLOL. When the votes came up I was all like OMG THEY'RE NOT VOTING FOR ME! I was all like OMG I CAN PARTICIPATE IN THE RE-VOTE. I was getting all ready to write a confessional about how I don't even have to feel bad about how I voted because Dusty/Kaitlyn voted for James and James is the one who told me that Dusty was targeting me, and that he was the one who told me to vote Dusty. And Dusty wouldn't have even been able to get mad because he DIDN'T EVEN TELL ME HE WAS VOTING FOR JAMES LOL. Also OMFG Dusty is honestly like the most basic b*tch on this tribe. If you look at our PMs, its so stoopid. Can he literally not have an actual conversation about the game. EVEN IF ITS NOT PERFECT? If you're not gonna talk about the game, then BYE BYE BYE GO HOME GOODBYE. But anyway, since I'm ok with this result, I'm gonna have to PM Dusty and tell him that I thought the vote against James was hilarious because I honestly think it was.

ALSO I did trust James, BUT... I am kinda glad he is gone now because I don't need that extra baggage lingering. ALSO DEWIE PLAYED THIS ALL WRONG. He didn't even talk to me about this. I WOULD HAVE LET HIM DO IT HAD HE TOLD ME. It tells me Dewie does not trust me, which is STOOPID. So. Dewie played up the whole James gang trio idea, ran with it, and actually just played it wrong. Good job Dewie!

The best part is that I get a good ally out of Alex probably. I'm still keeping close with Dewie. And I'm gonna actually get close to Dusty cuz I'm gonna send him a PM and and literally force him to talk to me. LITERALLY FORCE HIM.

Also, "DO-NOT-GIVE-A-SINGLE-f*ck Mode" has officially been activated in this thread. My OTT confessionals begin. You're welcome.

Also... "Clearly this tribe is not as strong on a social level as it is on a strength level."
How dare you? This TC was amazing and you know it. 

OH OH Also...this *completely* changes how I feel about Dewie. I DO NOT TRUST DEWIE. I'm even questioning whether he did or didn't find the clue to the idol. Which is another reason why I am going to interrogate Dusty and straight up tell him about my experience with the clues n sh*t. I will get Dusty to talk and he will either confirm or deny (directly or indirectly) whether or not he has the clues. I will straight up tell him that Dewie and James told me that they think that Dusty has the idol, and that when I didn't find it, I assumed the same. It will really depend on Dusty's response. He can either come forward and say that yeah he got a clue or whatever the f*ck, or he can be like "b*tch please blah blah blah". We will see what he says about Dewie. I'M DONE WITH DEWIE PLS DONT BE ON MY TRIBE GOODBYE.

[Phil]

So basically I am on a warpath against Dewie and I am prepared to lie through my teeth to him and get him out. I'm sure you are aware of the massive anti-vets alliance that has sprung up over the last few days. I was approached by E, Cole, and Tom about the anti-vets alliance, and over the course of the swap, the alliance grew to literally every person except for Dewie/Ashley/Alaina/Dusty/Kaitlyn/Jimmy. Soooooo, like, I guess this seems legit? Being in an alliance with 12 people is actually f*cking SCARY because someone could blow it up. But like Enchilada said, whoever blows it up will have 11 other people against them.

I'm in a cool spot because I'm actually still semi-close with Dewie. My whole strategy was to make Dewie trust me and want to work with me. Alex and I were very forgiving after Dewie and Dusty blindsided us at the Giong TC, and we knew we had to kiss a** and just "keep working with them". Now, we can play secret agents to the vets side because Dewie and Dusty are now scrambling for a majority of five on this new tribe of 9. We have four Giong members (Dewie, Dusty, Alex, and me), and all we need is a fifth. UNSURPRISINGLY, Dewie has already said to Alex that he can get Alaina to be the fifth. REALLY NOW. So, Dewie asked me who should be our fifth, and I'm like, "oh, hmm, maybe someone from Social? Alaina or Bryan". Like, I'm trying to play up that I think this will be a Social/Strength vs Strategy/Sidelined sorta thing. It masks the fact that I'm a part of the anti-vet alliance. So of course Dewie is like, "yeah that's who I was thinking."

OK STEP ONE COMPLETE. Let Dewie pull in Alaina. See if they try to pull in Bryan. Bryan/Alex/Me are already in the anti-vets alliance, so we can cozy up to Dewie/Dusty/Alaina and hopefully make it seem like we're in majority and get information from them. HOPEFULLY get some idea where the idol is. At the very least lull them into a false sense of security so that votes can be split without them being paranoid of an idol even existing.

There was talk about challenge throwing. WHICH I AM TOTALLY ABSOLUTELY AGAINST. I hated when Chie did it in Japan and I hate the idea now. But honestly I feel like our tribe needs to lose challenges LOL. I think our set up is fantastic to blindside a vet. *looks at Dewie*

I told you Dewie played last round all wrong.



Now watch me f*ck dis up. Lollerz.

[Phil]

So I haven't made a confessional recently but basically I feel like im f*cked if we lose. Ugh switch. Bulllllshiiit

[Phil]

OK quick confessional. Sorry I've just been really busy lately. Ok, I guess after I came up with my plan to lead Dewie on, we have to go and win the challenge. Then Joey exposes the anti-vets alliance so both Dewie and Dusty are all up in my business about what that sh*t is. And I'm so thankful that I didn't say sh*t in the massive PM. I knew that was gonna blow up. It's just a matter of who would blow it up.

So, I dropped the ball when it came to talking to Enchilada about what my plan was, but I kept Briq/Vova/Bryan/Alex in the loop about what I was thinking and how to proceed with Dewie. Like I think I'm still on the same page as Alex. We just haven't had to talk much bout game since we don't go to TC. LOL. But some of these people are like CONSTANTLY keeping tabs on people its so annoying. Anyway, so yeah then we win the next challenge. I was driving from South Dakota to Minnesota so I couldn't participate, but yay we won and Kaitlyn goes. I'm cool with that.

Then the switch is revealed and I'm like DAMN I had a really good set up on Giong v.2. I woulda been good. Then Cole messages me all like saying that he has heard that I have told some of the vets that Cole was the one who started the PM. I'm like, excuse me b*tch I didn't say that to ANYONE. I told VOVA that I *might* put Cole on blast if Dewie asks. HOWEVER I never responded to Dewie's inquiry about who started the PM because I realized why the f*ck should I? I don't need to. So I told Briq that Dewie asked who started the PM but that I wasn't gonna say sh*t. So, like, at least Briq should back me up that I didn't say anything. So I have like this intense convo with Cole about how I haven't said sh*t to Dewie and I explained what I was doing with Dewie. And Cole reveals that some people on his old tribe were worried that I was wavering. And I'm like b*tchES CAN YOU MIND YOUR OWN TRIBE'S BUSINESS. YOU COULDN'T EVEN VOTE OUT A VET YOUR FIRST TIME YOU IDIOTS. Anyway, I'm like rapid fire defending myself and I'm like I have screenshots to prove I never answered his question n sh*t cuz I'm mad that people who aren't even on my team are worried if I'm in the anti vets alliance or not.

And I'm like .. GUYS DEWIE SCREWED *ME*. Dewie blindsided ME. Why would I NOT be against him at this point? But now I'm like, ok so no one trusts me. Dewie doesn't trust me because, well, he shouldn't. And he didn't trust me when he actually could have. So f*ck him I guess. And now the others can't trust me. And seriously f*ck off if VOVA of all people is gonna go around saying that I told the vets that Cole started the PM. Vova is literally the only person I mentioned that too and I didn't even do it.

So now I'm pissed that no one trusts me and now I have to be VERY clear with my intentions. And honestly its ANNOYING that I have to f*cking let TEN OTHER f*ckING PEOPLE know my strategy. Like b*tches no I am not gonna tell TEN PEOPLE what I am doing in this game. NO. I will tell people that need to know. I will tell the people on my tribe. I don't do this cross tribal communication bullsh*t. Because I honestly hate it and it should be banned in every game lets be honest. Anyway. I don't have time for b*tches on the other tribes. Once you're on my tribe I'm all down for working with you but like come the f*ck on stop making fake alliances everyone.

Anyway, so finally Enchilada and I talk which is good cuz we're still on Giong. ALSO OMG I'M STILL ON GIONG I LOVE IT. They better not vote me out of my own damn tribe if we lose. Like seriously don't even. But I am extremely worried cuz it seems like I have like... the entire Bermuda/Tonga alliance all up on my tribe. Then me. So that's.... f*cking annoying and scary and we need to win these challenges cuz I do NOT trust these f*cking people and their goddamn pre-game alliances. LIKE CAN YOU NOT?

So anyway. I am HOPING my saving grace is that people will want to pick me up as a vote if we have to go to TC. Like honestly I hope I'm a swing this time and that they're not just planning on voting me out. Cuz f*ck. Like please, start revealing everyone's strategies to me so I know what everyone is doing. smilesmile

So yeah anyway I basically feel f*cked this switch because I feel like they're all in a pre-game alliance and I'm not. And also people seem to think I was wavering about the anti-vets alliances, when I KEPT MY GODDAMN MOUTH SHUT LOL. Anyway.

There's my rant for the past two rounds. Also I have been extremely busy so I haven't been able to talk that much with people, and I think people get really impatient when I wait more than a few hours to respond to their messages. Like please calm down I am not intentionally ignoring you.

Also I love how my tribe won immunity twice and I literally didn't have to do anything. I love it. My life is calming down after tomorrow, so I hope I can put in some effort at the TC and win win win. I need to keep this Giong winning streak going. GIONG <3

But I still feel f*cked because of what happened with the anti-vet alliance blow up so I'm pissed at Joey. WHY YOU GOTTA BE A b*tch, JOEY?

HANH
Dewie
Tom
Magnum
Vova
Dusty

GIONG
Phil
Briq
Ricardo
Cole
Enchilada

CHU TU
Ashley
Jimmy
Bryan
Stan
Alex

EXILE
Alaina

[Phil]

Me while doing this challenge LOL



I did terribly. LOL I decided I was just gonna c/p all the equations into google and hope and pray to Jesus that google solves using order of operations. And then OMG Chatzy was so slow and also I was making typos and it was being a b*tch and LOL I only got NINE. NINE OUT OF 50. And I have NO idea if I got any of those right! OMG!

Sooooooooo, yeahhhhhhhhhhh. I've been doing terribly in this game for the past few rounds. Just my challenge performance has been so subpar I'm so embarrassed and disappointed in myself. I just wanna say that I'm proud of myself for still actually being in this game somehow after the last few weeks I've had. Y'all, I've had the most amazing weekend with my family, but it has been a lot of work! I am headed back to South Dakota tomorrow, so I will pray to god that we won this challenge because I do not want to be tempted to strategize while I am traveling back. I have had to do that in Big Brother and it was very unfun.

SO. I am SUPER worried about losing this challenge. Like, I'm pretty sure literally every other person is in a big pre-game alliance, and maybe I'm the *only* person not in it? However, I have been talking to people since getting on this tribe so MAYBE just MAYBE I will be used as a swing vote for some epic internal power struggle.

SO NERVOUS though. SO NERVOUS.

If we do lose, though, I'll have to choose two people who are aligned, and hope that they want to work with me over the other two people. If they're all seriously aligned, then I'm f*cked. My one bargaining chip might actually be Alaina in this situation. Alaina is on exile island, and if we lose, then Alaina will be joining our tribe. I think we are all very nervous about Alaina joining this tribe because we think she already has a Hidden Immunity Idol. And we have no idea if she's gonna get more power or another idol or some sh*t on Exile Island or not. So, its very disconcerning.

My argument would be that I have a good relationship with Alaina due to the fact that Dewie was trying to set me up in an alliance with her before the anti-vet alliance was blown up. I've tried to cover my tracks with Dewie. If Alaina is gonna come to my tribe, I MIGHT have a chance at going to her and saying that we need to stick together because these other people think that I threw them under the bus when I didn't.

But, my plan won't actually be to work with Alaina. I would pitch it to say..Cole for example, that I could potentially get information out of Alaina about if/how she might use an idol or whatever. And that if I have any sway with Alaina, I can keep her from voting him out. If it was leaked to her that Cole started the PM, then Alaina might want to target him for starting that PM. If I can tell Cole that if he keeps me in this tribe if we lose, I can keep him safe from Alaina, since I'm still actually on good terms with Alaina.

I would HOPE HOPE HOPE that that would be incentive from Cole to want to protect me and work with me, if he thinks that I will offer him protection. And honestly, I absolutely would try to offer him protection from the wrath of Alaina should she join our tribe. Like, Cole and Enchilada were two of the big proponents of the anti-vet alliance. I'm gonna just go ahead and assume that they are fairly strongly aligned, so I'm gonna have to offer them the same thing. That I'll try to protect them from Alaina. I would really only need the support from those two.

I have NO idea if they have legit long term agreements with either Briq or Ricardo. Ricardo isn't opening up to me at all. Briq just told me that "we can do whatever we want" (allegedly with the vote?). So, I'd have to get more info from Briq about what he means, but if he tries to throw Cole or Enchilada under the bus, then I can use that to my advantage and go with those two instead. I would also like to find out more about how Briq and Enchilada worked together on the other tribe. Pretty sure there are only three original Strategy people left (Briq/E/Tom?). So...there had to be some tension there at some point maybe? My HOPE is that like, say, E/Tom were closer than E/Briq. Cuz if E/Briq are super tight, then I'm probably f*cked. Unless they just don't give a f*ck about Ricardo.

I'm just worried cuz I think they're all part of the Tonga/Bermuda alliance. SO THAT'S ANNOYING. Cole also said something about how he wants the BBBTB crew to take over. And im like..um...ok. But I also think he and E talk a lot so I just don't know. I'll have to talk to Cole and E tbh to find out if they're strongly aligned or what.

I HAVE A FIGHTING CHANCE IF WE LOSE TBH, EVEN THOUGH I'M FEELING VERY INSECURE. At least I have an argument to make. Hopefully we just don't f*cking fail as bad as I think we will.

[Phil]

Update: we thought we were gonna lose so we were setting up vote out plans. I wanted to make sure I was good with enchilada and Briq so I made a deal to stick with them. Cole told me he was cool with Ricardo from befire so i figured they'd wanna stick together.

Enchilada wanted to pull in Cole as a vote against Ricardo, so I made sure I stayed kind of out if it. I talked to Cole on the side to make sure he was ok with it. I don't think he is but he agreed.

Then Ricardo wins it for us LOL.

Ok awk